I woke up this morning thinking ‘would be nice to have a concise source for the whole zinc/colds thing’. This is amazing.
I help run an EA coliving space, so I started doing some napkin math on how many sick days you’ll be saving our community over the next year. Then vaguely extrapolated to the broader lesswrong audience who’ll read your post and be convinced/reminded to take zinc (and given decent guidance for how to use it effectively).
I’d guess at minimum you’ve saved dozens of days over the next year by writing this post. That’s pretty cool. Thankyou <3
What is true is already so / It all adds up to normality
What you’ve lost isn’t the future, it’s the fantasy.
What remains is a game that we were born losing, where there may be few moves left to make, and where most of us most of the time don’t even have a seat at the table.
However, it is a game with very high variance.
It is a game where world shaping things happen regularly due to one person getting lucky (right person, right place, right time, right idea etc).
And one thing I’ve noticed in people who routinely excel at high variance games—e.g. Poker, MTG—is how unaffected they are when they’re down/behind.
There is a mindset, in the moment, not of playing to win… but of playing optimally—of making the best move they can in any situation, of playing to maximize their outs no matter how unlikely they may be.
To those for whom the OP’s message strongly resonates: let it. Feel it. Give your grief and fear, sorrow and anger their due. Practice self-care; be kind and compassionate to yourself as you would to another who felt what you are feeling.
One morning you will wake up feeling okay, and you’ll realize you’ve felt okay more often than not lately.
Then, should this game still appeal to you, it is time to start playing again :)