“cannot imagine a study that would convince me that it “didn’t work” for me, in the ways that actually matter. The effects on my mind kick in sharply, scale smoothly with dose, decay right in sync with half-life in the body, and are clearly noticeable not just internally for my mood but externally in my speech patterns, reaction speeds, ability to notice things in my surroundings, short term memory, and facial expressions.”
The drug actually working would mean that your life is better after 6 years of taking the drug compared to the counterfactual where you took a placebo.
The observations you describe are explained by you simply having a chemical dependency on a drug that you have been on for 6 years.
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