Then the wave crested.
Is there any more you can say about this?
People already tell me I have good vibes, and feel like I listen to them[1]. I give off an air of nonchalance, because I think I kill[2] my emotions in public.
But I do it because it’s one more thing to deal with that I generally don’t have energy for. I’m already bothered by all the light and sound.
It seems like you’re saying “I meditated, and while at first that made sensory issues worse, eventually they just stopped.” And I’d like to know why, if that was legible to you.
Would appreciate any advice. I can probably say more about my experiences, but I’m not sure what more, if any, would be helpful.
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I don’t know if it’s the same as you. I think I’m maybe not as active a listener? I don’t think I’m incapable of the way I see you listen in your videos, but I’m not sure I put the energy into it.
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I use a visceral word because I don’t approve of this practice in myself. Perhaps “ignore” or “block” would be more accurate?
Thank you for the reply. I think I’ll need to look into things more.
One clarification I wanted to make. I wouldn’t have normally said that I need to put effort into listening. I think I generally feel like it doesn’t take effort. But somewhat recently I had an interaction with someone go poorly. It was a date, and they said afterwards that they didn’t feel like I wanted to get to know them, because I hadn’t asked enough things about them[1].
So I figure there’s something lacking in my interaction with people. Something that I’m not doing that I should, and doing things requires effort, so therefore I’m lacking in effort in some way.
I think you’re saying in some state it won’t be effortful, because it will be the path of least resistance. But I think my problem was not knowing what they wanted, and I don’t see how a state of mind would give me that information “for free”.
Possibly this was just idiosyncracy on their part. Other people have not expressed this feeling to me, so I have considered I’m putting too much weight on a single interaction.