Not one big abnormality. Inability to work for long stretches of time (you can get good at faking). Trouble focusing at random-ish times (even easier to fake). Inability to do certain things out of routine (now I pretend I’ll do it later). Extreme anxiety at things like paperwork. Panic attacks (I can delay them until I’m alone, but the cost is high). Sometimes after a panic attack my legs refuse to work, so I just sit there; I could crawl, but I don’t in public. Stimming (I choose consciously to do it, but the effects of not doing it when it’s needed are bad; I do it as discreetly as possible while still effective).
I do, very much; I want a job so I can get money so I can do things (such as, you know, saving the world). I don’t particularly like schooling but it helps get jobs, and has less variance than being an autodidact.
I couldn’t go to school or get a job. If I stay in school, I have a career ahead of me if I can pursue it.
What is this abnormality you have which, if you displayed it, would make it impossible to go to school or get a job?
Not one big abnormality. Inability to work for long stretches of time (you can get good at faking). Trouble focusing at random-ish times (even easier to fake). Inability to do certain things out of routine (now I pretend I’ll do it later). Extreme anxiety at things like paperwork. Panic attacks (I can delay them until I’m alone, but the cost is high). Sometimes after a panic attack my legs refuse to work, so I just sit there; I could crawl, but I don’t in public. Stimming (I choose consciously to do it, but the effects of not doing it when it’s needed are bad; I do it as discreetly as possible while still effective).
Panic attacks are a very treatable illness. See a medical doctor and tell him or her all about this.
Not wanting to go to school or get a job?
Nice try.
I do, very much; I want a job so I can get money so I can do things (such as, you know, saving the world). I don’t particularly like schooling but it helps get jobs, and has less variance than being an autodidact.