Not one big abnormality. Inability to work for long stretches of time (you can get good at faking). Trouble focusing at random-ish times (even easier to fake). Inability to do certain things out of routine (now I pretend I’ll do it later). Extreme anxiety at things like paperwork. Panic attacks (I can delay them until I’m alone, but the cost is high). Sometimes after a panic attack my legs refuse to work, so I just sit there; I could crawl, but I don’t in public. Stimming (I choose consciously to do it, but the effects of not doing it when it’s needed are bad; I do it as discreetly as possible while still effective).
Not one big abnormality. Inability to work for long stretches of time (you can get good at faking). Trouble focusing at random-ish times (even easier to fake). Inability to do certain things out of routine (now I pretend I’ll do it later). Extreme anxiety at things like paperwork. Panic attacks (I can delay them until I’m alone, but the cost is high). Sometimes after a panic attack my legs refuse to work, so I just sit there; I could crawl, but I don’t in public. Stimming (I choose consciously to do it, but the effects of not doing it when it’s needed are bad; I do it as discreetly as possible while still effective).
Panic attacks are a very treatable illness. See a medical doctor and tell him or her all about this.