Not one big abnormality. Inability to work for long stretches of time (you can get good at faking). Trouble focusing at random-ish times (even easier to fake). Inability to do certain things out of routine (now I pretend I’ll do it later). Extreme anxiety at things like paperwork. Panic attacks (I can delay them until I’m alone, but the cost is high). Sometimes after a panic attack my legs refuse to work, so I just sit there; I could crawl, but I don’t in public. Stimming (I choose consciously to do it, but the effects of not doing it when it’s needed are bad; I do it as discreetly as possible while still effective).
I do, very much; I want a job so I can get money so I can do things (such as, you know, saving the world). I don’t particularly like schooling but it helps get jobs, and has less variance than being an autodidact.
What is this abnormality you have which, if you displayed it, would make it impossible to go to school or get a job?
Not one big abnormality. Inability to work for long stretches of time (you can get good at faking). Trouble focusing at random-ish times (even easier to fake). Inability to do certain things out of routine (now I pretend I’ll do it later). Extreme anxiety at things like paperwork. Panic attacks (I can delay them until I’m alone, but the cost is high). Sometimes after a panic attack my legs refuse to work, so I just sit there; I could crawl, but I don’t in public. Stimming (I choose consciously to do it, but the effects of not doing it when it’s needed are bad; I do it as discreetly as possible while still effective).
Panic attacks are a very treatable illness. See a medical doctor and tell him or her all about this.
Not wanting to go to school or get a job?
Nice try.
I do, very much; I want a job so I can get money so I can do things (such as, you know, saving the world). I don’t particularly like schooling but it helps get jobs, and has less variance than being an autodidact.