You have your fall back position of retreat here, and very little to lose by experimenting with ways to break out of the behavioural loop you’re stuck in. People alter their behaviour in response to your own. Therefore you can make iterative changes and observe the effects.
That’s all I’m trying to get you to consider.
Androgens are not scribed for depression. Legally they’re considered to be hard drugs. It will take you all of five minutes to get a script for oxy but getting a script for testosterone is very difficult indeed (or was. TRT is more of a thing these days). This is less a medical issue and more of a cultural one.
Testosterone has mood altering effects (as anyone that has had a male puberty can attest). Those effects can be positive but there is no guarantee thereof. This is something you can try without significant difficultly, you will see effects almost immediately, and you’ll have a good idea whether it is a help or hinderance based on that.