I’m still mad how much the outside world seems to appreciate when you’re half-dead inside...
Oof, I haven’t thought directly about that before, but man that can sting.
Part of that seems to be the a basic part of “you’re the only one in your own head.” Other people have limited ability to know what I feel like, but can visibly tell whether or not I rage at other people. I get congratulated for not raging at people in tense situations, and it feels like I’m getting praised for the internal thing (ignoring my emotions).
Oof, I haven’t thought directly about that before, but man that can sting.
Part of that seems to be the a basic part of “you’re the only one in your own head.” Other people have limited ability to know what I feel like, but can visibly tell whether or not I rage at other people. I get congratulated for not raging at people in tense situations, and it feels like I’m getting praised for the internal thing (ignoring my emotions).