I feel you so much on depersonalization seeming super awesome until you realize you’re cut off from life itself in many ways. I’m still mad how much the outside world seems to appreciate when you’re half-dead inside...
I’m still mad how much the outside world seems to appreciate when you’re half-dead inside...
Oof, I haven’t thought directly about that before, but man that can sting.
Part of that seems to be the a basic part of “you’re the only one in your own head.” Other people have limited ability to know what I feel like, but can visibly tell whether or not I rage at other people. I get congratulated for not raging at people in tense situations, and it feels like I’m getting praised for the internal thing (ignoring my emotions).
I feel you so much on depersonalization seeming super awesome until you realize you’re cut off from life itself in many ways. I’m still mad how much the outside world seems to appreciate when you’re half-dead inside...
Oof, I haven’t thought directly about that before, but man that can sting.
Part of that seems to be the a basic part of “you’re the only one in your own head.” Other people have limited ability to know what I feel like, but can visibly tell whether or not I rage at other people. I get congratulated for not raging at people in tense situations, and it feels like I’m getting praised for the internal thing (ignoring my emotions).