Perhaps another couple words might be helpful given what you’re saying.
A few of the major symptoms of my depression included not having a lot of energy, being moody, and having a harder time just relaxing and having fun. It often felt like depression would come up and stand in the way of me being myself. That is really an experience of being controlled, where things were happening ‘just because of the depression.’
The subjective experience I’ve had of starting medication has been beautifully transparent. All that has happened is that depression coming up and ruining my day happens far less often. It feels like I am allowed to be myself.
Obviously these things work differently for different people, but the experience that I’ve had has been great and I can’t commend it highly enough.
I could talk a lot about it. So what exactly do you want to know ? :-)
I have the same symptoms.
But the worst for me is that it is so difficult to keep myself under control ( like you have said that things are happening just because of the depression)
I also often have weird thoughts,some kind of hallucinations.
Most people equate depression with sadness. But it isn’t only sadness.
I would rather say it feels like inner emptiness.
Or like someone dismembers you into pieces. ( I don’t really know how to describe this feeling).Sometimes I’m even beside myself with rage. Therefore I get the urge to scream and to destroy things ( normally I’m a very calm person).
And sometimes it hurts so much that I can’t feel affection or love.
That’s getting me really,really down. I don’t want to be so cold.
I have finally realized that I can’t bear it anymore.
It keeps getting worse and all my attempts to do something against it have failed. Sometimes I’m able to distract myself but I can’t “heal” it.
Perhaps another couple words might be helpful given what you’re saying.
A few of the major symptoms of my depression included not having a lot of energy, being moody, and having a harder time just relaxing and having fun. It often felt like depression would come up and stand in the way of me being myself. That is really an experience of being controlled, where things were happening ‘just because of the depression.’
The subjective experience I’ve had of starting medication has been beautifully transparent. All that has happened is that depression coming up and ruining my day happens far less often. It feels like I am allowed to be myself.
Obviously these things work differently for different people, but the experience that I’ve had has been great and I can’t commend it highly enough.
I could talk a lot about it. So what exactly do you want to know ? :-)
I have the same symptoms. But the worst for me is that it is so difficult to keep myself under control ( like you have said that things are happening just because of the depression) I also often have weird thoughts,some kind of hallucinations. Most people equate depression with sadness. But it isn’t only sadness. I would rather say it feels like inner emptiness. Or like someone dismembers you into pieces. ( I don’t really know how to describe this feeling).Sometimes I’m even beside myself with rage. Therefore I get the urge to scream and to destroy things ( normally I’m a very calm person). And sometimes it hurts so much that I can’t feel affection or love. That’s getting me really,really down. I don’t want to be so cold.
I have finally realized that I can’t bear it anymore. It keeps getting worse and all my attempts to do something against it have failed. Sometimes I’m able to distract myself but I can’t “heal” it.