I will acknowledge there’s a huge component of pride in this. I don’t want to give my family an opportunity to tell me they were right in their choices all along. When I joined the publishing company after three years in various call centers, my brother described it as “finally seing sense.”
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You’ve no idea how much I envy backpackers, but the prospect of not having a secure paycheck terrifies me.
That looks like a big conflict. You want a secure paycheck, but to you a secure paycheck means giving in to your family (and judging by your brother’s remark, that’s what it means to them also).
I don’t have any suggestions for solving that, but I do think that as long as you hold that conflict it’s going to be a big obstacle to moving in any direction.
I’m a non-smoking vegetarian teetotaler who has to walk a kilometer between home and the bus stop. I hope that >counts.
Actually, in my experience, the amount of exercise needed for strong benefits to mood and energy is about 20 minutes hard exercise (talking during becomes difficult), at least 4 days per week. You could take up running. Murakami swears by it.
I don’t have any suggestions for solving that, but I do think that as long as you hold that conflict it’s going to be a big >obstacle to moving in any direction.
This. It may help to see you lack of security as a fair price payed for your career. Others experienced it early, you simply have to deal with it later on. People have overcome far worse. Start meditating.
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That looks like a big conflict. You want a secure paycheck, but to you a secure paycheck means giving in to your family (and judging by your brother’s remark, that’s what it means to them also).
I don’t have any suggestions for solving that, but I do think that as long as you hold that conflict it’s going to be a big obstacle to moving in any direction.
Actually, in my experience, the amount of exercise needed for strong benefits to mood and energy is about 20 minutes hard exercise (talking during becomes difficult), at least 4 days per week. You could take up running. Murakami swears by it.
This. It may help to see you lack of security as a fair price payed for your career. Others experienced it early, you simply have to deal with it later on. People have overcome far worse. Start meditating.