Using “Karma” as a stand in for Epistemic credibility, I definitely have thoughts/beliefs which I then avoided discussing on Less Wrong, but the way I viewed that was that I simply didn’t have time to properly research/structure my comments on them to seem good enough to gain points or stay neutral.
(As a side note, I had other thoughts/beliefs about this post that I felt I didn’t have time to properly research/structure: Edit: And I ended up posting them below this line.)
But I suppose another way of thinking about this is “I’m afraid this belief might be wrong AND seem over confident, and other people will judge me for that. Let me try to make sure this post is more solid and has all necessary caveats before saying anything.” I don’t think that’s the same thing. But I guess it is possible that I’m lying to myself about that somehow?
For instance, here is a belief I would have ordinarily censored in regards to this, If I weren’t already kind of being Meta:
“This hurts me. I tend to incorrectly interpret this as being worried about being wrong at all times and I’m continually on the lookout for harsh reprimands or worse when none should be reasonably expected (or they should be expected but should be brushed off), to the point where I recently had to get my doctor to boost my dose of anti-anxiety pills.”
But NOW I’m afraid that I’m making that more true by acknowledging it out loud, where as, if I DIDN’T post that, my thoughts on the matter would be slightly different?
And honestly, at this point I would ordinarily think “I’m lost in my own head. I should discard most of this as gibberish and move on.”
Except that the entire point of this was trying to honestly consider my own thought processes, so I probably should post this even if it seems stream of conciousnessy.
...So when my thoughts are like that, it’s really hard to boil them down to a number.
Using “Karma” as a stand in for Epistemic credibility, I definitely have thoughts/beliefs which I then avoided discussing on Less Wrong, but the way I viewed that was that I simply didn’t have time to properly research/structure my comments on them to seem good enough to gain points or stay neutral.
(As a side note, I had other thoughts/beliefs about this post that I felt I didn’t have time to properly research/structure: Edit: And I ended up posting them below this line.)
But I suppose another way of thinking about this is “I’m afraid this belief might be wrong AND seem over confident, and other people will judge me for that. Let me try to make sure this post is more solid and has all necessary caveats before saying anything.” I don’t think that’s the same thing. But I guess it is possible that I’m lying to myself about that somehow?
For instance, here is a belief I would have ordinarily censored in regards to this, If I weren’t already kind of being Meta:
“This hurts me. I tend to incorrectly interpret this as being worried about being wrong at all times and I’m continually on the lookout for harsh reprimands or worse when none should be reasonably expected (or they should be expected but should be brushed off), to the point where I recently had to get my doctor to boost my dose of anti-anxiety pills.”
But NOW I’m afraid that I’m making that more true by acknowledging it out loud, where as, if I DIDN’T post that, my thoughts on the matter would be slightly different?
And honestly, at this point I would ordinarily think “I’m lost in my own head. I should discard most of this as gibberish and move on.”
Except that the entire point of this was trying to honestly consider my own thought processes, so I probably should post this even if it seems stream of conciousnessy.
...So when my thoughts are like that, it’s really hard to boil them down to a number.