Sorry to hear this has been difficult for you. It sounds like you really want to find a way to make durable change and tried many techniques already. I think it’s admirable and impressive to see how passionate and driven you are. But if it’s having some negative consequences or making you unhappy maybe a bit of tuning could be useful. How do you feel when you have trouble to go to bed? Taking a wild guess I’d say you might be feeling a bit anxious, inadequate, frustrated or maybe embarrassed. What thoughts do you have? Is there a deep-seated value that drives those? (maybe “a person’s achievement drives their worth”?) If this connects in any way, I’d suggest checking out David Burns’ podcast or books. It sounds like you enjoy systematic approaches and routines, maybe a 5 minutes journal could help express main goals and take stock.
How do you feel when you have trouble to go to bed? Taking a wild guess I’d say you might be feeling a bit anxious, inadequate, frustrated or maybe embarrassed.
Sometimes this is true, but over time 1) I realised that having these thoughts aren’t helpful 2) I probably did it too many times that these feelings don’t happen as much
Is there a deep-seated value that drives those? (maybe “a person’s achievement drives their worth”?)
Sorry to hear this has been difficult for you. It sounds like you really want to find a way to make durable change and tried many techniques already.
I think it’s admirable and impressive to see how passionate and driven you are. But if it’s having some negative consequences or making you unhappy maybe a bit of tuning could be useful.
How do you feel when you have trouble to go to bed? Taking a wild guess I’d say you might be feeling a bit anxious, inadequate, frustrated or maybe embarrassed. What thoughts do you have? Is there a deep-seated value that drives those? (maybe “a person’s achievement drives their worth”?)
If this connects in any way, I’d suggest checking out David Burns’ podcast or books.
It sounds like you enjoy systematic approaches and routines, maybe a 5 minutes journal could help express main goals and take stock.
Sometimes this is true, but over time 1) I realised that having these thoughts aren’t helpful 2) I probably did it too many times that these feelings don’t happen as much
Worthiness is definitely something that I’ve been contemplating a lot recently. Here’s my current brain dump: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1XLavaM69FiJ1eQyKlLcYlJjG9xexzN4MkBc2VM6J424/edit