Sometimes when I’m writing an email to someone at work, I noticing I’m making various faces, as if to convey the emotion in the sentence I’m writing. It’s like… I’m composing a sentence, I’m imagining what I’m trying to express, and I’m imagining that expression, and along with that comes the physical faces and mental stances of the thing I’m expressing. It’s like I’m trying to fill in and inhabit some imagined state.
Over the past year I’ve noticed a similar sort of feeling when I’m thinking about something I could potentially do, and I’m being motivated by appearing impressive. The idea/thought is there, and then I try to “fill it up” and momentarily live into that world. There’s normally a slight tension in my forehead that starts to form. There’s also a sort of “zooming in” feeling in my head. It likely sounds drastic me typing it out, but this is all pretty subtle and I didn’t notice it for a while.
Anywho, mostly if I find myself pleasurably stewing in the imagined state of the thing, it’s a sign for me that it’s about impressiveness. I seem to not sit in the idea when there’s other motivations? I can’t think of any reason why that would be the case, but it seems to be for me.
I’m currently interested in the idea of “the physical sensation correlation of different mental states”, like becoming intimately aware of the visceral, physical felt sense of being stressed or triggered, or relaxed and open, or having a strong sense of self or a small sense of identity, or a strong emotion in physical sensations only or a strong emotion with a story and sense of self attached or...
Specifically practicing this would look like paying attention to your body’s felt sense while doing [thing] in different ways (like interacting with your emotions using different system’s techniques). Building this skill will create higher quality feedback from your body’s felt-sense, allowing a greater ability to identify different states in the wild. This post’s idea of hijacked values and your comment point to a specific feeling attached to hijacked values.
This better bodily intuition may be a more natural, long term solution to these types of problems than what I would naively come up with (like TAPs or denying the part of me that actually wants the “bad” thing)
Sometimes when I’m writing an email to someone at work, I noticing I’m making various faces, as if to convey the emotion in the sentence I’m writing. It’s like… I’m composing a sentence, I’m imagining what I’m trying to express, and I’m imagining that expression, and along with that comes the physical faces and mental stances of the thing I’m expressing. It’s like I’m trying to fill in and inhabit some imagined state.
Over the past year I’ve noticed a similar sort of feeling when I’m thinking about something I could potentially do, and I’m being motivated by appearing impressive. The idea/thought is there, and then I try to “fill it up” and momentarily live into that world. There’s normally a slight tension in my forehead that starts to form. There’s also a sort of “zooming in” feeling in my head. It likely sounds drastic me typing it out, but this is all pretty subtle and I didn’t notice it for a while.
Anywho, mostly if I find myself pleasurably stewing in the imagined state of the thing, it’s a sign for me that it’s about impressiveness. I seem to not sit in the idea when there’s other motivations? I can’t think of any reason why that would be the case, but it seems to be for me.
I’m currently interested in the idea of “the physical sensation correlation of different mental states”, like becoming intimately aware of the visceral, physical felt sense of being stressed or triggered, or relaxed and open, or having a strong sense of self or a small sense of identity, or a strong emotion in physical sensations only or a strong emotion with a story and sense of self attached or...
Specifically practicing this would look like paying attention to your body’s felt sense while doing [thing] in different ways (like interacting with your emotions using different system’s techniques). Building this skill will create higher quality feedback from your body’s felt-sense, allowing a greater ability to identify different states in the wild. This post’s idea of hijacked values and your comment point to a specific feeling attached to hijacked values.
This better bodily intuition may be a more natural, long term solution to these types of problems than what I would naively come up with (like TAPs or denying the part of me that actually wants the “bad” thing)