I’m glad to hear that. Actually, though, it’s not necessarily best to call it “honesty”, as that implies that it is somehow a virtuous act wherein I am fighting against the urge to be dishonest / hide the truth; in reality, it is far harder for me to hide my negative feelings than to show them, and I’ve been essentially venting which I-when-sane consider to be rather crass and immature. I-when-not-sane have a LONG history of emotional outbursts to strangers on the internet.
Also, I-when-not-sane has possibly false beliefs about my overall health, some of which may be extreme exaggerations. I am really not sure. When I feel okay, as I do right now, the claim that I am in danger of self-harm for any reason seems ludicrous (because I-feeling-okay wouldn’t do it, and cannot empathize at all with I-when-not-okay), and I begin to worry that I’ve been unconsciously emotionally manipulating people by mentioning it.
It’s such fun to be an incoherent agent whose beliefs and utility function regularly shift drastically for no good reason! :P
I’m glad to hear that. Actually, though, it’s not necessarily best to call it “honesty”, as that implies that it is somehow a virtuous act wherein I am fighting against the urge to be dishonest / hide the truth; in reality, it is far harder for me to hide my negative feelings than to show them, and I’ve been essentially venting which I-when-sane consider to be rather crass and immature. I-when-not-sane have a LONG history of emotional outbursts to strangers on the internet.
Also, I-when-not-sane has possibly false beliefs about my overall health, some of which may be extreme exaggerations. I am really not sure. When I feel okay, as I do right now, the claim that I am in danger of self-harm for any reason seems ludicrous (because I-feeling-okay wouldn’t do it, and cannot empathize at all with I-when-not-okay), and I begin to worry that I’ve been unconsciously emotionally manipulating people by mentioning it.
It’s such fun to be an incoherent agent whose beliefs and utility function regularly shift drastically for no good reason! :P