Something also feels Wrong about enjoying sadness. If you happen to enjoy sadness, then you need to be really careful not to deliberately cause harmful things to happen to yourself or others, just for the sake of experiencing the sadness.
When you deeply grok that you are not the world, I don’t think it’s likely that relishing emotional turbulence will encourage you to deliberately cause harmful things to happen.
What it may (hopefully) do is encourage you to be more curious and less risk-averse. Personally, I have found that I tend to slip into a sort of autopilot, where I stagnate, become emotionally numb, and lose effectiveness as a person. Unfortunately this also causes me to lose the impetus for introspection. In periods of clarity, I can easily see that emotion is a tool I should be using, but I’ve gotten so good at ignoring it, I feel trapped.
So this article was particularly relevant and helpful to me. I’m also interested in more specific strategies/affirmations/examples for reconciling emotion as a feedback mechanism rather than a source of anxiety to be swept under the rug.
If they don’t give me what I want after I say the correct sequence of words I won’t be returning to them.
It’s easy to find a doctor who will work with you.