I completely agree about compassion, and I regularly dedicate a part of my meditation practice to metta, but there is a tension here between cultivating a compassionate mind-state and being effective enough in the world to act on that compassion, I think OP’s situation is firmly in the “too compassionate” camp. The mind-states of Tibetan monks in Himalayan caves might be sublime beyond belief, their minds containing gigantic amounts of compassion, yet they have no meaningful effect on the world outside their cave. Saving insects to cultivate compassion in yourself does make sense, but we shouldn’t fool ourselves into thinking that saving them is the best thing to do from a moral stand-point.
I completely agree about compassion, and I regularly dedicate a part of my meditation practice to metta, but there is a tension here between cultivating a compassionate mind-state and being effective enough in the world to act on that compassion, I think OP’s situation is firmly in the “too compassionate” camp. The mind-states of Tibetan monks in Himalayan caves might be sublime beyond belief, their minds containing gigantic amounts of compassion, yet they have no meaningful effect on the world outside their cave. Saving insects to cultivate compassion in yourself does make sense, but we shouldn’t fool ourselves into thinking that saving them is the best thing to do from a moral stand-point.