There is definitely this sense that exerting force or willpower feels like an EXTERNAL pressure even if that pressure does not have an external source that I could point to or even gesture at. But it /feels/ external or ‘not me’.
I have some trauma related to this. I could’ve gone into the trauma stuff more, but I think it would have made the post less accessible and also more confusing, rather than less. So I didn’t. :P
There is definitely this sense that exerting force or willpower feels like an EXTERNAL pressure even if that pressure does not have an external source that I could point to or even gesture at. But it /feels/ external or ‘not me’.
I have some trauma related to this. I could’ve gone into the trauma stuff more, but I think it would have made the post less accessible and also more confusing, rather than less. So I didn’t. :P