I’ve been trying to be more “agenty” and less NPC-ish lately, and having some reasonable success. In the past month I’ve:
-Gone to a SlateStarCodex meetup
This involved taking a greyhound bus, crossing the border into a different country, and navigating my way around an unfamiliar city—all things that would have stopped me from even considering going a few years ago. But I realized that none of those things were actually that big of a deal, that what was really stopping me was that it just wasn’t something I would normally do. And since there was no real reason I couldn’t go, and because I knew I really wanted to go, I just up and did it.
(had a great time btw, no regrets)
-Purchased a used (piano) keyboard
I used to just kind of vaguely wish that I had a keyboard, because it seemed like it would be a fun thing to learn. I would think this resignedly, as if it were an immutable fact of the universe that I couldn’t have a keyboard—for some reason going out and buying one didn’t really occur to me. Now that I have one I’m enjoying it, although I’m mostly just messing around and it’s clear that I’ll need more structure if I’m really going to make progress.
-Signed up for an interview for the MIRI Summer Fellows program
Working at MIRI would be amazing, a dream come true. But I always just sort of assumed I wasn’t cut out for it. And that may well be true, but here’s a practically zero-cost chance to find out. Why not take it? (Of course, there’s always the possibility that I’m just wasting Anna Salamon’s time, which I wouldn’t want to do. But I don’t think I’m so obviously underqualified that that would be the case). Again, I don’t think is something I would have done even a year ago.
I’ve also been having much more success consistently writing for my blog, which I used to always enjoy but rarely do.
Basically I’ve gotten a ton of mileage out of just having the concept of agency installed in my brain. Knowing that I can just do the things I want, even if they’re weird or I haven’t done them before, is pretty freeing and pretty cool. The whole “Roles” arc of HPMOR really drove this idea home for me I think.
I’ve been trying to be more “agenty” and less NPC-ish lately, and having some reasonable success. In the past month I’ve:
-Gone to a SlateStarCodex meetup
This involved taking a greyhound bus, crossing the border into a different country, and navigating my way around an unfamiliar city—all things that would have stopped me from even considering going a few years ago. But I realized that none of those things were actually that big of a deal, that what was really stopping me was that it just wasn’t something I would normally do. And since there was no real reason I couldn’t go, and because I knew I really wanted to go, I just up and did it.
(had a great time btw, no regrets)
-Purchased a used (piano) keyboard
I used to just kind of vaguely wish that I had a keyboard, because it seemed like it would be a fun thing to learn. I would think this resignedly, as if it were an immutable fact of the universe that I couldn’t have a keyboard—for some reason going out and buying one didn’t really occur to me. Now that I have one I’m enjoying it, although I’m mostly just messing around and it’s clear that I’ll need more structure if I’m really going to make progress.
-Signed up for an interview for the MIRI Summer Fellows program
Working at MIRI would be amazing, a dream come true. But I always just sort of assumed I wasn’t cut out for it. And that may well be true, but here’s a practically zero-cost chance to find out. Why not take it? (Of course, there’s always the possibility that I’m just wasting Anna Salamon’s time, which I wouldn’t want to do. But I don’t think I’m so obviously underqualified that that would be the case). Again, I don’t think is something I would have done even a year ago.
I’ve also been having much more success consistently writing for my blog, which I used to always enjoy but rarely do.
Basically I’ve gotten a ton of mileage out of just having the concept of agency installed in my brain. Knowing that I can just do the things I want, even if they’re weird or I haven’t done them before, is pretty freeing and pretty cool. The whole “Roles” arc of HPMOR really drove this idea home for me I think.