Exponent of Desire
I’ve been mostly lying in bed with fever for the last couple of days, and one night my starved for external stimuli semi-conscious mind produced the following mathematical construct, which I decided to share. This is not intended to be scientific or even all that serious.
So, suppose you have something. Let’s call it ‘s’. You like it, so you want to keep having it. This is a first-order want, let’s call it w(s). You also want to want to have it, which is a second order want: w(w(s)), or w2(s). If you are perfectly content, this will be true for all higher order wants, as well, wn(s). Now, you don’t worry nearly as much about higher orders, so let’s discount their contribution to your thoughts and feelings by the factor n!. Finally, the sum total of your wants for s is
(1+w+w2/2!+...wn/n!+...)(s)=ew(s).
This is, of course, the standard way to construct functions of linear operators.
So, if you love someone wholeheartedly and without reservation, you can call them the exponent of your desire. Hopefully they are geeky enough to appreciate it.
I spent a long time trying to come up with some explanation that would come up with sin(w)s. There was even gonna be a pun (it’s a sin to have such convoluted desires).
But I failed.
You mean, you want it,
but you’re neutral to wanting it,
and you definitely don’t want to want to want it,
and you’re neutral towards wanting not to want to want it,
and you’re glad you’re neutral towards wanting not to want to want it,
etc?
Seems like someone who likes something but is pretty glad they’re not obsessive about it. Could happen with a moderate user of alcohol, or a fan of something that gathers obsessive fans...
He wanted a sin and you gave him a cos.
I don’t really care much about the it
My friends do though, so I often wish I cared more
I’m unsure whether I want to be moved by that consideration though
I really wish I had stronger opinions about things like that
But I don’t really know how much good that wish is doing me
At least I give self reflection a shot though, people always say it has good effects
Though I’m unsure whether I should believe the hype
I dislike always being uncertain
Though I admit that dislike has both unpleasant and motivating aspects
And I love just what this drive to dispel uncertainty can do
...
Bonus points to whoever manages to make one recurse on itself and actually get the infinite series
Awesome.
Shouldn’t the last one refer to the one above it rather that the one two places above it though? I think it should be “and I love being able to recognize the costs and benefits of this uncertainty” rather than “and I love just what this drive to dispel uncertainty can do.”
I think it fits better if cos = you have it and don’t care that you have it, etc. I don’t mean it fits what you were saying originally, but in terms of conceptual schema, I think the integral of w(s) is cleaner.
Sorry, you are right, I got confused.
In the OP, 0th order was your wanting the thing, right? So you were right that I gave him cos...
No, “you want it” corresponds to w, “don’t want to want to want it,” is -w^3/3!, etc.
That’s me, with lots of stuff.
Imaginary wants?
Of course! That could make things a lot easier.
The sum total of your wants for s is w(s). s just means that you have it. w^2(s) means that you want to want to have s, but not that you want s. Perhaps you’ve been told that good people want s, so you want to want s. You might try to get s to make people think you want s, or because you’re in denial about wanting s, but you don’t actually want s.