Same: my university career swiftly progressed from English/French lit to Geography post-grad to Philosophy post-grad. I now teach Maths.
I tend to practise things until they are almost there and then, satisfied, I give up on them completely. For instance, I spent two years learning the dictionary inside out for Scrabble, beat the then World no.1 in my first tournament and haven’t played since. Similarly, I genned up on music production and got to within a hair’s breadth of getting a record deal...and then jacked it all in.
The only progress I’ve managed to make in combating this mindset is to half-convince myself that giving things up only because I think that more likely than not I will be able to do them is a cop-out, rather than a time-saver.
It (with ‘it’ probably being ADHD rather than Asperger’s) is a path to utter unemployability if nothing else.
Ah yes, that could be a factor. Perhaps it’s self-imposed Sisypheanism to ward off feelings of guilt.
One thing that does nag at me generally is the mutual exclusivity of life paths and the fear of options never having been explored or closed off for ever.
But, then again, I don’t reach the end of any of these paths, so I’m not so much living an enthralling variety as enacting an Eternal Return.
Same: my university career swiftly progressed from English/French lit to Geography post-grad to Philosophy post-grad. I now teach Maths.
I tend to practise things until they are almost there and then, satisfied, I give up on them completely. For instance, I spent two years learning the dictionary inside out for Scrabble, beat the then World no.1 in my first tournament and haven’t played since. Similarly, I genned up on music production and got to within a hair’s breadth of getting a record deal...and then jacked it all in.
The only progress I’ve managed to make in combating this mindset is to half-convince myself that giving things up only because I think that more likely than not I will be able to do them is a cop-out, rather than a time-saver.
It (with ‘it’ probably being ADHD rather than Asperger’s) is a path to utter unemployability if nothing else.
Are you afraid of success? What do you think would happen if you succeeded?
Ah yes, that could be a factor. Perhaps it’s self-imposed Sisypheanism to ward off feelings of guilt.
One thing that does nag at me generally is the mutual exclusivity of life paths and the fear of options never having been explored or closed off for ever.
But, then again, I don’t reach the end of any of these paths, so I’m not so much living an enthralling variety as enacting an Eternal Return.
How depressing!