Reality dealt you precisely the best possible hand: a) your illusions (e.g. your perception of feeling safe and “in control” in the midst of traffic) have been dispelled, but b) you have gotten away without any damage.
You received a gift—the feeling of gratitude isn’t precisely insane, but you should assume you made a mistake, and analyze the situation in terms of “where did I mess up” rather than “guardian angel was watching over wonderful me”.
This post from RationalPoker seems apropos.
Reality dealt you precisely the best possible hand: a) your illusions (e.g. your perception of feeling safe and “in control” in the midst of traffic) have been dispelled, but b) you have gotten away without any damage.
You received a gift—the feeling of gratitude isn’t precisely insane, but you should assume you made a mistake, and analyze the situation in terms of “where did I mess up” rather than “guardian angel was watching over wonderful me”.
Preaching to the converted, bro. I have mastered the logic of it a long time ago, but it does not affect the feeling.
Communication remains hard. Looks like I’ve messed it up, somehow. :)
My best idea at this point is to recommend a (re)reading of The Sirens of Titan.