I woke up feeling fried, extra crispy, with no motivation and everything was grey, even the outdoors (the weather was literally a hazy drizzly grey all day, and not the good kind, was more of the bad swampy kind). What I noticed feeling yesterday and then throughout today correlate reasonably well with a depression episode trying to take root. I’d prefer for that not to happen, because those aren’t fun, and I have things to do. Time for interventions! (to be detailed later in the post)
I practised Swift for about 1 hour and 30 minutes today, up from yesterday at least.
I did not exercise today.
I did not log my calories today.
I hosted today’s Houston Rationalists Virtual Meetup, thank you to all who came, it was fun!
I applied to a really cool software engineering volunteer-work opportunity, I hope I get to join that team!
Interventions; I don’t know for sure if what’s been impacting me is an oncoming depression episode, but just in case I’ll stage the usual interventions (it’s fully possible that not exercising at all has caused my mood and happiness set point to plummet, but not exercising could also be comorbid with oncoming depression episode. brains are complicated; changing diet could be an impact too)
Tomorrow I will operate under an actual schedule:
9 to 13: practise Swift
13 to 16: be virtually social and do messages, emails, etc.
16 to 18: exercise and be generally up and about doing active stuff, this is a great time to sort and pack things in the garage, for example.
18 to 20: shower, eat dinner, do a few things around the house
20 onwards: Freedom!
I will turn on more lights than I think necessary, and keep them on.
I will play fast paced upbeat music and not listen to slow or sad music.
I will focus on having fun and noticing through fresh eyes.
All experiences and phenomena are temporary, this, whatever it may be, shall pass, and I will be okay!
Saturday will be somewhat similar to Friday, but a bit more relaxed, I’ll detail that schedule in tomorrow’s shortform. Sunday will be a rest day, no shortform that day, no expectations, nothing. Just fun, rest, and relaxation. I will write my weekly review Saturday night :)
Take care of yourselves, it’s important to do that, you’re important!
Cheers,
Willa
Shortform #28 What’s going on?
I woke up feeling fried, extra crispy, with no motivation and everything was grey, even the outdoors (the weather was literally a hazy drizzly grey all day, and not the good kind, was more of the bad swampy kind). What I noticed feeling yesterday and then throughout today correlate reasonably well with a depression episode trying to take root. I’d prefer for that not to happen, because those aren’t fun, and I have things to do. Time for interventions! (to be detailed later in the post)
I practised Swift for about 1 hour and 30 minutes today, up from yesterday at least.
I did not exercise today.
I did not log my calories today.
I hosted today’s Houston Rationalists Virtual Meetup, thank you to all who came, it was fun!
I applied to a really cool software engineering volunteer-work opportunity, I hope I get to join that team!
Interventions; I don’t know for sure if what’s been impacting me is an oncoming depression episode, but just in case I’ll stage the usual interventions (it’s fully possible that not exercising at all has caused my mood and happiness set point to plummet, but not exercising could also be comorbid with oncoming depression episode. brains are complicated; changing diet could be an impact too)
Tomorrow I will operate under an actual schedule:
9 to 13: practise Swift
13 to 16: be virtually social and do messages, emails, etc.
16 to 18: exercise and be generally up and about doing active stuff, this is a great time to sort and pack things in the garage, for example.
18 to 20: shower, eat dinner, do a few things around the house
20 onwards: Freedom!
I will turn on more lights than I think necessary, and keep them on.
I will play fast paced upbeat music and not listen to slow or sad music.
I will focus on having fun and noticing through fresh eyes.
All experiences and phenomena are temporary, this, whatever it may be, shall pass, and I will be okay!
Saturday will be somewhat similar to Friday, but a bit more relaxed, I’ll detail that schedule in tomorrow’s shortform. Sunday will be a rest day, no shortform that day, no expectations, nothing. Just fun, rest, and relaxation. I will write my weekly review Saturday night :)
Take care of yourselves, it’s important to do that, you’re important!
Cheers,
Willa
Note: I listened to a wonderful, upbeat, and smooth liquid drum & bass mix of Feint songs while writing this, go soak up those silvery beats and enjoy!