So my main problem is with the mood of your post, not its overt message. Maybe the best way to get it across is to explain what moods are.
People are always in some kind of mood. How do you feel, right here right now, behind the eyes? Is there a whiff of joy, or boredom, or resentment, or emptiness? What kind of emotional cocktail are you mixing in your head this moment, and offering it for others to drink? Because it comes across.
We as nerds have trained ourselves to disregard moods in favor of facts. To accept the truth no matter how it makes you feel, and therefore ignore how you feel. Over time we can even learn to be depressed without realizing it! Few of us notice our own current flavor, much less use it in decision-making or change it consciously.
Think of a naturally happy person you know, someone who’s a joy to be with. What you’re feeling isn’t some innate property of that person. It’s just the flavor of the drink they carry in their head, maybe some kind of sparkly. It comes across no matter what they say or do. Maybe you’ve had such moments yourself, and then forgot!
Now come back to your post and reread it. It’s a reflection of your emotional state at the time of writing. Is that state good and worth sharing with the world? Or is it more of a bitter frustration that wants to stop itself, replace itself with something happier? If so, why share it at all? It’s not the whole of you, it’s just a drink that you don’t even like. Focus on the space behind your eyes… notice the flavor… and imagine a different flavor in its place, one you’d want to enjoy and spread.
So my main problem is with the mood of your post, not its overt message. Maybe the best way to get it across is to explain what moods are.
People are always in some kind of mood. How do you feel, right here right now, behind the eyes? Is there a whiff of joy, or boredom, or resentment, or emptiness? What kind of emotional cocktail are you mixing in your head this moment, and offering it for others to drink? Because it comes across.
We as nerds have trained ourselves to disregard moods in favor of facts. To accept the truth no matter how it makes you feel, and therefore ignore how you feel. Over time we can even learn to be depressed without realizing it! Few of us notice our own current flavor, much less use it in decision-making or change it consciously.
Think of a naturally happy person you know, someone who’s a joy to be with. What you’re feeling isn’t some innate property of that person. It’s just the flavor of the drink they carry in their head, maybe some kind of sparkly. It comes across no matter what they say or do. Maybe you’ve had such moments yourself, and then forgot!
Now come back to your post and reread it. It’s a reflection of your emotional state at the time of writing. Is that state good and worth sharing with the world? Or is it more of a bitter frustration that wants to stop itself, replace itself with something happier? If so, why share it at all? It’s not the whole of you, it’s just a drink that you don’t even like. Focus on the space behind your eyes… notice the flavor… and imagine a different flavor in its place, one you’d want to enjoy and spread.