More seriously would you consider doing work on, for example, rentacoder.com? That doesn’t involve making you leave the basement and if you know what you are doing can give a passable income.
As for not worrying and been disabled by shame ‘buying drugs’ is actually probably the way to go. The advantage of your situation is that you can afford to take risks. If you (believe that you) do not have much to lose then the chance of improvement is more appealing relative to risk. So my suggestion is this: go to the ‘supplements’ section of the imminst.org forums. Those guys are experienced in using and recommending drugs and supplements based on what research and experience suggests works rather than based on authority or status. They may be able to suggest something that enables you to handle shame better. Once the worst of it is curbed you may well be able to get past the shame that is blocking you and actually do some mind hacking (or similar techniques).
Well, in that case it is down to either:
Buy drugs. Or,
Sell drugs.
More seriously would you consider doing work on, for example, rentacoder.com? That doesn’t involve making you leave the basement and if you know what you are doing can give a passable income.
As for not worrying and been disabled by shame ‘buying drugs’ is actually probably the way to go. The advantage of your situation is that you can afford to take risks. If you (believe that you) do not have much to lose then the chance of improvement is more appealing relative to risk. So my suggestion is this: go to the ‘supplements’ section of the imminst.org forums. Those guys are experienced in using and recommending drugs and supplements based on what research and experience suggests works rather than based on authority or status. They may be able to suggest something that enables you to handle shame better. Once the worst of it is curbed you may well be able to get past the shame that is blocking you and actually do some mind hacking (or similar techniques).