There is no reason that your Christian social network has to know you are reconsidering your position. Going forward you can work on building other networks which don’t rely on your faith, and eventually you can make your beliefs public if you so choose. You can continue to grow personally, even if no one around you knows you are doing it. We all present ourselves in a different fashion depending on our audience; this is different only in magnitude.
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There is no reason that your Christian social network has to know you are reconsidering your position. Going forward you can work on building other networks which don’t rely on your faith, and eventually you can make your beliefs public if you so choose. You can continue to grow personally, even if no one around you knows you are doing it. We all present ourselves in a different fashion depending on our audience; this is different only in magnitude.