I have to second the idea that it takes time to realign your emotions. I have overcome a number of irrational fears in my life and they don’t usually go away as soon as I realize that they are irrational. For example, after I stopped believing in god, I still felt uncomfortable blaspheming. After I decided that it was OK to eat meat, it took me months before I actually was willing to eat any meat. And there are countless other situations where I decided, “This is a safe/acceptable activity”, and yet I would still have a visceral uneasiness about doing them while acclimating to the idea.
I have to second the idea that it takes time to realign your emotions. I have overcome a number of irrational fears in my life and they don’t usually go away as soon as I realize that they are irrational. For example, after I stopped believing in god, I still felt uncomfortable blaspheming. After I decided that it was OK to eat meat, it took me months before I actually was willing to eat any meat. And there are countless other situations where I decided, “This is a safe/acceptable activity”, and yet I would still have a visceral uneasiness about doing them while acclimating to the idea.