My worry is that there might be some high-level circuit which is even now coming online to prevent me from using this technique—to make me forget about the whole thing, or to simply not use it even though I know of it.
You don’t need to be quite that paranoid. PCT’s model of “reorganization” presumes that it is associated with “intrinsic error”—something we generally perceive as pain, stress, fear, or “pressure”.
So if you are experiencing a conflict between controllers that will result in rewiring you, you should be able to notice it as a gradually increasing sense of pressure or stress, at which point you can become aware of the need to resolve a conflict in your goals.
Remember: your controllers are not alien monsters taking you over; they are you, and reflect variables that at some point, you considered important to control for. They may have been set up erroneously or now be obsolete, but they are still yours, and to let go of them therefore requires actual reflection on whether you still need them, whether there is another way to control the variable, whether the variable should be slightly redefined, etc.
Ah, yeah. After thinking it through for a while, I realized you were right. At its bottom, it’s a question of me (or whoever who’s suffering from the problem) not really wanting to change and also not wanting acknowledge this. Not a malevolent demon invisibly rewriting reality whenever things don’t go the way it likes.
At its bottom, it’s a question of me (or whoever who’s suffering from the problem) not really wanting to change and also not wanting acknowledge this.
It’s not even that; it’s just that unless you make connections between what you want and how to get it, you’re just going to end up with whatever slop of a controller structure you previously managed to throw together well enough to just barely work… for your circumstances at the time.
And to get an improved control structure, you have to be willing to look at what’s already there, not just throw in a bunch of optimistic new stuff and expect it to work. Most likely, things are the way they are for good reasons, and if your changes don’t take those reasons into account, you will end up with conflicts and relapse.
Of course, as long as you take the relapse as feedback that something else in the control structure needs modification, you’ll be fine. It’s the interpretation of a relapse as meaning that you lack sufficient willpower or something like that, that creates problems.
You don’t need to be quite that paranoid. PCT’s model of “reorganization” presumes that it is associated with “intrinsic error”—something we generally perceive as pain, stress, fear, or “pressure”.
So if you are experiencing a conflict between controllers that will result in rewiring you, you should be able to notice it as a gradually increasing sense of pressure or stress, at which point you can become aware of the need to resolve a conflict in your goals.
Remember: your controllers are not alien monsters taking you over; they are you, and reflect variables that at some point, you considered important to control for. They may have been set up erroneously or now be obsolete, but they are still yours, and to let go of them therefore requires actual reflection on whether you still need them, whether there is another way to control the variable, whether the variable should be slightly redefined, etc.
Ah, yeah. After thinking it through for a while, I realized you were right. At its bottom, it’s a question of me (or whoever who’s suffering from the problem) not really wanting to change and also not wanting acknowledge this. Not a malevolent demon invisibly rewriting reality whenever things don’t go the way it likes.
It’s not even that; it’s just that unless you make connections between what you want and how to get it, you’re just going to end up with whatever slop of a controller structure you previously managed to throw together well enough to just barely work… for your circumstances at the time.
And to get an improved control structure, you have to be willing to look at what’s already there, not just throw in a bunch of optimistic new stuff and expect it to work. Most likely, things are the way they are for good reasons, and if your changes don’t take those reasons into account, you will end up with conflicts and relapse.
Of course, as long as you take the relapse as feedback that something else in the control structure needs modification, you’ll be fine. It’s the interpretation of a relapse as meaning that you lack sufficient willpower or something like that, that creates problems.