I guess that too. There’s been a lot of cool comments on that post already, so I’m sort of starting to figure stuff out now, but I imagine that the original worry that started it was something like: I live in a country where I have no trouble paying for my education, pretty much everyone I know has a master’s degree (though there’s massively more business-schooled types than more clearly intellectual professions), I went to good schools, and I’m now at what is supposed to be a top university. Why would it not be rewarded for me to think? But I guess a lot of people, certainly at my uni, aren’t rationality nerds obsessed with evidence and the scientific method, so it actually seems to make sense. And, to a large extent, I think that being autistic and all made me very aloof and focusing on my own little inner world, which seems basically equivalent to punishing myself for having ideas in the ‘real world’? On the level of emotions and feelings, that’s something I’m quite ashamed of, but that I’m ’not sure’ (aka. have trouble bothering to find out) how to solve.
I guess that too. There’s been a lot of cool comments on that post already, so I’m sort of starting to figure stuff out now, but I imagine that the original worry that started it was something like: I live in a country where I have no trouble paying for my education, pretty much everyone I know has a master’s degree (though there’s massively more business-schooled types than more clearly intellectual professions), I went to good schools, and I’m now at what is supposed to be a top university. Why would it not be rewarded for me to think? But I guess a lot of people, certainly at my uni, aren’t rationality nerds obsessed with evidence and the scientific method, so it actually seems to make sense. And, to a large extent, I think that being autistic and all made me very aloof and focusing on my own little inner world, which seems basically equivalent to punishing myself for having ideas in the ‘real world’? On the level of emotions and feelings, that’s something I’m quite ashamed of, but that I’m ’not sure’ (aka. have trouble bothering to find out) how to solve.