I assume you’re telling all of this to your psychiatrist and following their advice. In addition, speaking with a psychologist about your concerns. Ask yourself if you might have bipolar disorder or seasonal depression rather than just depression. Anti-depressants don’t work great in a lot of those cases, and in the case of bipolar disorder, it makes your mood swings worse. Also try multiple drugs, they don’t all target the same mechanisms.
As for non-professional/medication steps, you should probably follow some of lukeprogs advice on happiness (find it from the sequences page). He covers the literature on what has empirically been shown to make people happier. It’s not intuitive.
it isn’t nearly as great as I imagined and that a changing worldview or belief-system can have a far higher impact.
This illustrates how your intuition about what makes you happy is wrong. It’s not having a certain model of reality or willing your mind to do something from the inside, it’s about finicky lizard-brain mood machinery and daily doses of beating it into happiness by feeding it tiny doses of positive external experiences.
I assume you’re telling all of this to your psychiatrist and following their advice. In addition, speaking with a psychologist about your concerns. Ask yourself if you might have bipolar disorder or seasonal depression rather than just depression. Anti-depressants don’t work great in a lot of those cases, and in the case of bipolar disorder, it makes your mood swings worse. Also try multiple drugs, they don’t all target the same mechanisms.
As for non-professional/medication steps, you should probably follow some of lukeprogs advice on happiness (find it from the sequences page). He covers the literature on what has empirically been shown to make people happier. It’s not intuitive.
This illustrates how your intuition about what makes you happy is wrong. It’s not having a certain model of reality or willing your mind to do something from the inside, it’s about finicky lizard-brain mood machinery and daily doses of beating it into happiness by feeding it tiny doses of positive external experiences.