I have spent 9 years writing texts about x-risks prevention. I spent a lot of money on it and lost a lot of business opportunities. I have been cheated all the time, in business, relationship and even science field. I have been humiliated in sexual field many times. I thought about suicide even I consider it impossible because of quantum immortality.
I thought to stop doing it many times. Nobody reads my texts and even if some one is reading it has zero influence on total probability of extinction.
But… I just return to my computer and continue to work on the texts in mornings, and try to have parties in evening.
In fact solving complex intellectual problems provides me with consistent many hours pleasure. Relationship thing do the opposite.
I wouldn’t be so sure that no one is reading what you write. Powerful people have little incentive to let it be known that they read odd websites like Less Wrong, but I assume they sometimes waste time browsing the internet like the rest of us. And insofar as high IQ and rationality are related to business success, it makes sense that wealthy people would disproportionately have LWish cognitive profiles and be interested in reading things LWers are interested in. There are a number of wealthy software entrepreneurs who have given large amounts to MIRI, for instance (Thiel, Tallin, McCaleb).
I have spent 9 years writing texts about x-risks prevention. I spent a lot of money on it and lost a lot of business opportunities. I have been cheated all the time, in business, relationship and even science field. I have been humiliated in sexual field many times. I thought about suicide even I consider it impossible because of quantum immortality.
I thought to stop doing it many times. Nobody reads my texts and even if some one is reading it has zero influence on total probability of extinction.
But… I just return to my computer and continue to work on the texts in mornings, and try to have parties in evening. In fact solving complex intellectual problems provides me with consistent many hours pleasure. Relationship thing do the opposite.
Thanks for your work.
I wouldn’t be so sure that no one is reading what you write. Powerful people have little incentive to let it be known that they read odd websites like Less Wrong, but I assume they sometimes waste time browsing the internet like the rest of us. And insofar as high IQ and rationality are related to business success, it makes sense that wealthy people would disproportionately have LWish cognitive profiles and be interested in reading things LWers are interested in. There are a number of wealthy software entrepreneurs who have given large amounts to MIRI, for instance (Thiel, Tallin, McCaleb).
Even if powerful people don’t browse themselves, people who have influence with them might.
I hope you continue to find happiness.