As someone who has been through a lot of abuse, beware. Your future self, not your current self, feels the fallout from the abuse more so than your current self. You have adapted to your abusive situation, when it goes away, you will be maladapted. Get out. Just take it on blind faith that you should get out if you have to. You don’t want to end up like me. In my case I was indeed subjected to violence like what might happen to you. To this day, I regret not retaliating, killing my abuser or torturing them back to save myself from even a portion of it. And I’m well aware that’s very much not normal. Now, even though I have the opportunity, I don’t want to and won’t, but if I could go back in time, well...the point is that you should get out, and that’s not at all going to be the hard point from there.
As someone who has been through a lot of abuse, beware. Your future self, not your current self, feels the fallout from the abuse more so than your current self. You have adapted to your abusive situation, when it goes away, you will be maladapted. Get out. Just take it on blind faith that you should get out if you have to. You don’t want to end up like me. In my case I was indeed subjected to violence like what might happen to you. To this day, I regret not retaliating, killing my abuser or torturing them back to save myself from even a portion of it. And I’m well aware that’s very much not normal. Now, even though I have the opportunity, I don’t want to and won’t, but if I could go back in time, well...the point is that you should get out, and that’s not at all going to be the hard point from there.