I may have missed it, but it didn’t really seem like you explained why you had the problem-of-a-different-sort. Could you elaborate on this? You go into far more detail about the first type of problem, when you think your standards will be higher, when you care about the outcome more than the others, etc. (type #1).
But you kind of gloss over the second (type #2), simply admitting that it happened.
It might be helpful for you to reflect (or if you have, add it to an “Edit” section) on why when you were in a type #2 situation that sounds like pretty much what you dream about when in type #1 situations… you seem to have produced the tangible results of a type #1 team member.
I clarified results as tangible, as I am saying nothing of your internal state, what you would have said if you asked whether you thought the outcome was important, whether you cared, etc. What I’m saying is that the output you fear/loathe from others in type #1 situations (not much in the way of contributions, little interaction, procrastination) might not be discernible from your actual output when in your desired type #2 situation, at least to a removed observer.
I probably didn’t say enough about it in the article, if you thought it seemed glossed over, but I thought a lot about why this happened at the time, and I was pretty upset (more than I should have been, really, over a school project) and that’s why I left the group...because unlike type#1 team members, I actually cared a lot about making a fair contribution and felt like shit when I hadn’t. I never consciously decided to procrastinate, either...I just had a lot of other things on my plate, which is pretty much inevitable during the school year, and all of a sudden, foom!, my part of the project is done because one of the girls was bored on the weekend and had nothing better to do. (Huh? When does this ever happen?)
So I guess I’m like a team #1 member in that I procrastinate when I can get away with it, but like a team#2 member in that I do want to turn in quality work and get an A+. And I want it to my my quality work, not someone else’s with my name on it.
Oops, I think you’ve got team #2 and team#1 backwards there… in the post above, team#1 members are procrastinators and team #2 members want to get quality work done.
I may have missed it, but it didn’t really seem like you explained why you had the problem-of-a-different-sort. Could you elaborate on this? You go into far more detail about the first type of problem, when you think your standards will be higher, when you care about the outcome more than the others, etc. (type #1).
But you kind of gloss over the second (type #2), simply admitting that it happened.
It might be helpful for you to reflect (or if you have, add it to an “Edit” section) on why when you were in a type #2 situation that sounds like pretty much what you dream about when in type #1 situations… you seem to have produced the tangible results of a type #1 team member.
I clarified results as tangible, as I am saying nothing of your internal state, what you would have said if you asked whether you thought the outcome was important, whether you cared, etc. What I’m saying is that the output you fear/loathe from others in type #1 situations (not much in the way of contributions, little interaction, procrastination) might not be discernible from your actual output when in your desired type #2 situation, at least to a removed observer.
Have you thought about why that is?
I probably didn’t say enough about it in the article, if you thought it seemed glossed over, but I thought a lot about why this happened at the time, and I was pretty upset (more than I should have been, really, over a school project) and that’s why I left the group...because unlike type#1 team members, I actually cared a lot about making a fair contribution and felt like shit when I hadn’t. I never consciously decided to procrastinate, either...I just had a lot of other things on my plate, which is pretty much inevitable during the school year, and all of a sudden, foom!, my part of the project is done because one of the girls was bored on the weekend and had nothing better to do. (Huh? When does this ever happen?)
So I guess I’m like a team #1 member in that I procrastinate when I can get away with it, but like a team#2 member in that I do want to turn in quality work and get an A+. And I want it to my my quality work, not someone else’s with my name on it.
Oops, I think you’ve got team #2 and team#1 backwards there… in the post above, team#1 members are procrastinators and team #2 members want to get quality work done.
Probably. Thanks.