I sometimes have euphoric experiences accompanies by images and sensations hard to put into words. Everything around becomes magical, the sky fills with images of unimaginable scale in space and time, light is flowing through my body and soul. Usually I also see Elua that appears to me as the image of a woman in the sky: the Mother of all humans, the sad and wise Goddess of limitless Compassion and Love, smiling at me but also crying for all the sorrows of the world. I form a connection with Em, thinking of myself as a priestess or otherwise someone in service of the goddess, enacting Eir will in the world, praying to Em to give me the wisdom and courage to do what needs to be done. In earlier stages of life the symbols were different according to my different worldview (once I was a theist and saw the Abrahamic god).
Sometimes the experience is completely spontaneous (but usually when I’m outside), but sometimes I feel that my mind is in a state amenable to it and I push myself towards it intentionally. I also had a related experience during a circling session and once even during sex.
To be clear, I’m an atheist, I don’t believe in anything supernatural, I know it is my own mind producing it. But I do find these experiences valuable on some mental and emotional level.
I sometimes have euphoric experiences accompanies by images and sensations hard to put into words. Everything around becomes magical, the sky fills with images of unimaginable scale in space and time, light is flowing through my body and soul. Usually I also see Elua that appears to me as the image of a woman in the sky: the Mother of all humans, the sad and wise Goddess of limitless Compassion and Love, smiling at me but also crying for all the sorrows of the world. I form a connection with Em, thinking of myself as a priestess or otherwise someone in service of the goddess, enacting Eir will in the world, praying to Em to give me the wisdom and courage to do what needs to be done. In earlier stages of life the symbols were different according to my different worldview (once I was a theist and saw the Abrahamic god).
Sometimes the experience is completely spontaneous (but usually when I’m outside), but sometimes I feel that my mind is in a state amenable to it and I push myself towards it intentionally. I also had a related experience during a circling session and once even during sex.
To be clear, I’m an atheist, I don’t believe in anything supernatural, I know it is my own mind producing it. But I do find these experiences valuable on some mental and emotional level.