My sense was more “MSRayne has run into various posts, for a variety of reasons including people misleading them about where the posts are, and this is why it’s extremely sensible that they want very clear and unambiguous maps from other people about where those other people’s posts/boundaries are.”
Ah. Yes. It’s fun when your parent who protects you from posts, and the posts themselves, are the exact same entity. Growing up like that has probably permanently damaged my mental health and ability to function properly in human society, since everything that for them would be a surefire predictor of danger is totally innocuous in the majority of other people. My prior for humans is “narcissist pretending to be kind in order to get something out of me.”
Ah, and now I see what you meant about worlds. The thing is, the fact that we have differing life experience doesn’t actually provide me any evidence that I’m wrong. I’m not sure what evidence that I’m wrong there would even look like; my paranoia could explain away any amount of it.
I need to be careful though. Take anything I say about my own psychology with several grains of salt—it changes with my mood and everything I say about myself is a conjecture due to having basically no idea what is actually going on below the surface of my own brain most of the time. It’s entirely possible that I don’t automatically assume people are narcissists out to get me, but just think that I assume that when I’m already primed with the idea of paranoia. This is where I go into spirals.
My sense was more “MSRayne has run into various posts, for a variety of reasons including people misleading them about where the posts are, and this is why it’s extremely sensible that they want very clear and unambiguous maps from other people about where those other people’s posts/boundaries are.”
Ah. Yes. It’s fun when your parent who protects you from posts, and the posts themselves, are the exact same entity. Growing up like that has probably permanently damaged my mental health and ability to function properly in human society, since everything that for them would be a surefire predictor of danger is totally innocuous in the majority of other people. My prior for humans is “narcissist pretending to be kind in order to get something out of me.”
Ah, and now I see what you meant about worlds. The thing is, the fact that we have differing life experience doesn’t actually provide me any evidence that I’m wrong. I’m not sure what evidence that I’m wrong there would even look like; my paranoia could explain away any amount of it.
I need to be careful though. Take anything I say about my own psychology with several grains of salt—it changes with my mood and everything I say about myself is a conjecture due to having basically no idea what is actually going on below the surface of my own brain most of the time. It’s entirely possible that I don’t automatically assume people are narcissists out to get me, but just think that I assume that when I’m already primed with the idea of paranoia. This is where I go into spirals.