First 6 years—painful and miserable spent in a state of hopelessness and self-loathing. A deep depression with suicide was a constantly considered option. I wanted it all to stop.
I gave up my career as a veterinary surgeon, which was all I’d ever wanted to be since I was 6 but I hated it more and more through the years. The wins were just me doing my job so I got no joy/satisfaction/anything positive in those. The losses always hit hard, the fear and doubt—could I have done more/did I miss something/what if I’d done something different? The losses always outnumbered the wins in the end.
Now, that I’ve learned to use my body correctly—to use the right muscles, to physically balance my body and work towards dynamic alignment and a full range of natural movement—it’s a whole new world for me.
So past advice to myself—Learn to use your body better—starting with your Base-Line muscles (pelvic floor Base, rectus abdominis Line) the key to connecting body and mind. Would I have listened? I hope so because the anatomy is solid and should be able to stand up to scrutiny if I can get anyone else to consider it.
How was my decade?
First 6 years—painful and miserable spent in a state of hopelessness and self-loathing. A deep depression with suicide was a constantly considered option. I wanted it all to stop.
I gave up my career as a veterinary surgeon, which was all I’d ever wanted to be since I was 6 but I hated it more and more through the years. The wins were just me doing my job so I got no joy/satisfaction/anything positive in those. The losses always hit hard, the fear and doubt—could I have done more/did I miss something/what if I’d done something different? The losses always outnumbered the wins in the end.
Now, that I’ve learned to use my body correctly—to use the right muscles, to physically balance my body and work towards dynamic alignment and a full range of natural movement—it’s a whole new world for me.
So past advice to myself—Learn to use your body better—starting with your Base-Line muscles (pelvic floor Base, rectus abdominis Line) the key to connecting body and mind. Would I have listened? I hope so because the anatomy is solid and should be able to stand up to scrutiny if I can get anyone else to consider it.
Well that was quite cathartic!