I want to point out the contraction between you saying introspection says “die” and the fact that you, having reflected on this, deciding not to do “introspection” because doing so leads to the thought that dying would be good and you don’t want to die. If you could change yourself such that doing “introspection” didn’t lead to the thought of death would you?
Probably.
The fact you haven’t killed yourself suggests that you’re not actually introspecting on your true values, just some unhappy subset thereof (or perhaps, introspecting with your true values on an incomplete subset of the data you have about the quality of your life/the universe).
I currently have compelling reasons to refrain from killing myself, regardless of my general lack of personal interest in continued existence. Alas, like so many other things, the peace of the grave is denied to me.
Also, if I promise to spend 5 minutes crying upon notice of your death, will you not kill yourself in order to spare me the unpleasantness?
I don’t expect you to get such notice. You’re just some guy on the internet; if I simply stop posting, you’ll probably never know why. But no, that wouldn’t be enough to dissuade me from implementing Really Extreme Altruism if I ever decided to actually go through with it.
Probably.
I currently have compelling reasons to refrain from killing myself, regardless of my general lack of personal interest in continued existence. Alas, like so many other things, the peace of the grave is denied to me.
I don’t expect you to get such notice. You’re just some guy on the internet; if I simply stop posting, you’ll probably never know why. But no, that wouldn’t be enough to dissuade me from implementing Really Extreme Altruism if I ever decided to actually go through with it.