I had an experience while meditating under the influence of a hallucinogen and a dissociative in which an entity was showing me different emotional dimensions in my life over time (anger v. time, etc.). The thing that was odd was that the graphs all extended a ways beyond the current date and when we got to the “suffering v. time” graph, there was a large spike 4-6 months in the future. I rejected the idea that I would undergo intense suffering like that (prior to this I had mostly been trying to maintain equanimity about the different graphs). The entity told me that it was related to the death of someone close to me, I rejected the experience and stopped meditating. Five months and one day later I got a call from one of my best friends and found out that he’d been diagnosed with lung cancer about two weeks prior and that it was too far along to provide anything more than palliative care.
Maybe I “rewrote” the time frame in my memory once the event occurred, but it sure feels like it was 4-6 months. Fear of the suffering associated with grief used to bother me, so it wouldn’t be surprising that that might come up under the influence of psychedelics. I remember assuming that the person who was going to die was my dad, so I don’t think that I picked up any clues about my friends medical condition.
I had an experience while meditating under the influence of a hallucinogen and a dissociative in which an entity was showing me different emotional dimensions in my life over time (anger v. time, etc.). The thing that was odd was that the graphs all extended a ways beyond the current date and when we got to the “suffering v. time” graph, there was a large spike 4-6 months in the future. I rejected the idea that I would undergo intense suffering like that (prior to this I had mostly been trying to maintain equanimity about the different graphs). The entity told me that it was related to the death of someone close to me, I rejected the experience and stopped meditating. Five months and one day later I got a call from one of my best friends and found out that he’d been diagnosed with lung cancer about two weeks prior and that it was too far along to provide anything more than palliative care.
Maybe I “rewrote” the time frame in my memory once the event occurred, but it sure feels like it was 4-6 months. Fear of the suffering associated with grief used to bother me, so it wouldn’t be surprising that that might come up under the influence of psychedelics. I remember assuming that the person who was going to die was my dad, so I don’t think that I picked up any clues about my friends medical condition.