That’s interesting. I definitely never feel like my thoughts or desires are alien to me. That sounds very unhealthy. But, I definitely exhibit compulsions, or at least compulsive behaviors. I think the difference might be different perspectives or mental habits, rather than a real difference between minds. One thing is rationalization—“I’m watching funny youtube videos, that’s probably because I want and like funny youtube videos”. Another thing is a sort of self awareness—I may feel for a moment “I want to work, instead of watching funny youtube videos”, but then immediately remember that, in fact, working is hard, and I don’t actually want it that much (although I do want to be a sort of person who works more, not sure to what extent this is “egodystonic”).
That’s interesting. I definitely never feel like my thoughts or desires are alien to me. That sounds very unhealthy. But, I definitely exhibit compulsions, or at least compulsive behaviors. I think the difference might be different perspectives or mental habits, rather than a real difference between minds. One thing is rationalization—“I’m watching funny youtube videos, that’s probably because I want and like funny youtube videos”. Another thing is a sort of self awareness—I may feel for a moment “I want to work, instead of watching funny youtube videos”, but then immediately remember that, in fact, working is hard, and I don’t actually want it that much (although I do want to be a sort of person who works more, not sure to what extent this is “egodystonic”).