True, the difference is the direction, but surely that counts for something? Pain and pleasure are chemically and neurologically different phenomena. A ground state of “endless gray” is not something you’d really want.
suffering is the cost paid to experience happiness
I’m guessing you may be a Roman Catholic. In case you’re not, how did you come to see suffering as having exchange value?
I hope my comments are not taken as offensive. I know I sometimes tend to dramatize my degree of surprise. I genuinely wish to understand your position.
True, the difference is the direction, but surely that counts for something? Pain and pleasure are chemically and neurologically different phenomena.
I still don’t experience “pleasure”, at least in sense where I can say, “Yes, that sensation is positive in a way other sensations are not”. At best I can say I experience variety. Pain is just starting to be a negative thing; it’s difficult to accept it as suffering when it was one of the few things that offered any variety at all to my experience for many years. Pain isn’t pleasure, they’re different flavors, but they’re both spices.
A ground state of “endless gray” is not something you’d really want.
This is very true.
I’m guessing you may be a Roman Catholic. In case you’re not, how did you come to see suffering as having exchange value?
I was raised, and remain, an atheist. And exchange value isn’t quite the same thing; it’s more they’re the same variable, but different values. Living for more than a decade without either suffering or happiness, and only starting to experience happiness when I started to allow myself to experience suffering.
I regard suffering and happiness as sums, rather than independent variables; they’re composite emotions, perhaps better modeled as waves, created by summing up one’s current total mindstate. Each is the inverse of the other; being waves, rather than simple linear values, it’s possible to both be suffering and be happy, if one area of one’s life is going well and one area is going poorly. But they’re both invariably tied to one’s norm; if one has had a consistently good life, their life continually to be consistently good isn’t going to provide any happiness, even though the same section of life, transplanted into somebody with a consistently bad life, would provide ecstasy. Likewise, a consistently bad life doesn’t translate into suffering; it’s the particularly bad parts of that life that are experienced as suffering, everything else is experienced as the norm.
This is backed up by studies of self-reported happiness, which tracks a norm, and only rarely [ETA: permanently] deviates from that norm. This norm, this base level of self-reported happiness (which I distinguish from experienced happiness), is the norm from which happiness and suffering are experienced as deviations.
this base level of self-reported happiness … is the norm from which happiness and suffering are experienced as deviations.
True, but only partially true. The stable base level, as you know, varies. There are people with high-happiness stable level and people with low-happiness stable level. These people look and behave very differently in real life. The high-base people look and behave happy at their neutral setting I don’t see any reason to believe that it’s just outwards manifestations which do not reflect the internal state. The low-base people are, in contrast, much less happy at their neutral setting.
So yes, on the one hand happiness/suffering is relative to your base state; but on the other hand there is an absolute scale as well and high-base people are happier than low-base people.
It’s hard to say what goes on in other people’s heads, but my self-reported happiness would be an assessment of my well-being relative to what I regard as my cultural norm, whereas my experienced happiness is a different value entirely.
I base my belief that this is the norm for humans on the fact that life satisfaction decreases are correlated with suicide rates irrespective of the absolute value of life satisfaction (although certain factors can have an inhibitive effect); that is, wealthy nations, which generally have higher self-reported happiness levels, also have high suicide rates. Their high base level of happiness, if this were the same variable as experienced happiness, should otherwise offset the suffering they experience, which does not appear to happen.
People’s social behavior is more predicated on their perceived relationship to the local/current social group than the state of their internal variables. I don’t base this on any study, but rather personal observation.
I’m not talking about evaluating one’s own internal state. I’m talking about outward signs.
I know both high-base and low-base people from, more or less, the same cultural circles. It’s not that they would answer the question “How happy are you?” differently—I don’t know, I haven’t asked. It’s just that the high-base people smile and laugh a lot, are prone to engaging in spontaneous fun, are generally comfortable with life. And the low-base people tend to have a characteristic disapproving expression on their faces (which will actually mold their face by middle age), whine and grumble a lot, and find life generally unpleasant.
Note that here I’m talking about, basically, long-term averages. In the short term high-base people can and will get unhappy and depressed; low-base people can and will get excited and joyful. But both will revert to the mean—I’m not talking about bipolar people who will oscillate between highs and lows, they are a separate category.
At the start, I decided that emotions were holding me back, and that logic was the more appropriate path, and so sat down one day and destroyed my emotions.
Over the next few years? I graduated high school, then college, got a couple of low-level jobs, then a real job, which I’ve held since. Dated a few people, role-played a normal person in the course of my interactions with them.
My emotions weren’t completely gone, over this period of time, but rather… remote, happening to somebody else. If they got particularly intense, I could observe my body’s reaction to them—hands clenching in anger, for example—but I didn’t actually experience them. The emotions were there, but the connection to my conscious mind was severed.
At some point in there, I read Atlas Shrugged, which convinced me that emotions were not, in fact, useless distractions from pure logic. I still wasn’t experiencing them, but the absence was no longer desirable; at that point, it was neutral. Everything was neutral, really. That began the gray phase of my life.
I honestly don’t remember much from that period of time. Nothing had any kind of significance. I worked, I dated, read books, played games. None of it particularly mattered; existence was a habit without importance. It wasn’t unpleasant, because unpleasantness would have been something. I was told I was depressed. If I was, if I wasn’t—didn’t particularly matter.
Then I tried LSD. And… I had a day that wasn’t gray. I appreciated the green color of the leaves on trees, the texture of the bark. Shrug So I decided I would prefer to live like that all the time, and started permitting myself to experience life again. Started taking Vitamin D, which kick-started the process.
Which began a rather dark period, as allowing myself to experience required confronting all the suffering I had avoided. The deaths of some people who had been close to me in my youth. An ex-girlfriend raping me, and before that with another partner, my first sexual encounters having been undesired, but my having not refused because I didn’t care enough to. How inherently abusive many of the relationships I was in were, how dysfunctional the situation I had allowed myself to get into was. Admitting to myself that much of the past decade of my life had been a failure.
And then things got better, because the recognition that things were bad was the same as the recognition that things could get better, and so I starting making things better. I got out of the situation, and have started working towards the next phase in my life.
That’s an amazing journey of self-discovery. I, too, had a period where I wanted to erase the parts of me that I found useless, but I didn’t go as deeply Vulcan as you did. (You’re the first person I’ve met who became more sensitive and overall nicer because of Atlas Shrugged.) I’m sorry to hear that you went through so many dark places during your process, and I find your final meditations on the meaning of suffering to be quite inspiring. You have my admiration.
True, the difference is the direction, but surely that counts for something? Pain and pleasure are chemically and neurologically different phenomena. A ground state of “endless gray” is not something you’d really want.
I’m guessing you may be a Roman Catholic. In case you’re not, how did you come to see suffering as having exchange value?
I hope my comments are not taken as offensive. I know I sometimes tend to dramatize my degree of surprise. I genuinely wish to understand your position.
I still don’t experience “pleasure”, at least in sense where I can say, “Yes, that sensation is positive in a way other sensations are not”. At best I can say I experience variety. Pain is just starting to be a negative thing; it’s difficult to accept it as suffering when it was one of the few things that offered any variety at all to my experience for many years. Pain isn’t pleasure, they’re different flavors, but they’re both spices.
This is very true.
I was raised, and remain, an atheist. And exchange value isn’t quite the same thing; it’s more they’re the same variable, but different values. Living for more than a decade without either suffering or happiness, and only starting to experience happiness when I started to allow myself to experience suffering.
I regard suffering and happiness as sums, rather than independent variables; they’re composite emotions, perhaps better modeled as waves, created by summing up one’s current total mindstate. Each is the inverse of the other; being waves, rather than simple linear values, it’s possible to both be suffering and be happy, if one area of one’s life is going well and one area is going poorly. But they’re both invariably tied to one’s norm; if one has had a consistently good life, their life continually to be consistently good isn’t going to provide any happiness, even though the same section of life, transplanted into somebody with a consistently bad life, would provide ecstasy. Likewise, a consistently bad life doesn’t translate into suffering; it’s the particularly bad parts of that life that are experienced as suffering, everything else is experienced as the norm.
This is backed up by studies of self-reported happiness, which tracks a norm, and only rarely [ETA: permanently] deviates from that norm. This norm, this base level of self-reported happiness (which I distinguish from experienced happiness), is the norm from which happiness and suffering are experienced as deviations.
True, but only partially true. The stable base level, as you know, varies. There are people with high-happiness stable level and people with low-happiness stable level. These people look and behave very differently in real life. The high-base people look and behave happy at their neutral setting I don’t see any reason to believe that it’s just outwards manifestations which do not reflect the internal state. The low-base people are, in contrast, much less happy at their neutral setting.
So yes, on the one hand happiness/suffering is relative to your base state; but on the other hand there is an absolute scale as well and high-base people are happier than low-base people.
It’s hard to say what goes on in other people’s heads, but my self-reported happiness would be an assessment of my well-being relative to what I regard as my cultural norm, whereas my experienced happiness is a different value entirely.
I base my belief that this is the norm for humans on the fact that life satisfaction decreases are correlated with suicide rates irrespective of the absolute value of life satisfaction (although certain factors can have an inhibitive effect); that is, wealthy nations, which generally have higher self-reported happiness levels, also have high suicide rates. Their high base level of happiness, if this were the same variable as experienced happiness, should otherwise offset the suffering they experience, which does not appear to happen.
People’s social behavior is more predicated on their perceived relationship to the local/current social group than the state of their internal variables. I don’t base this on any study, but rather personal observation.
I’m not talking about evaluating one’s own internal state. I’m talking about outward signs.
I know both high-base and low-base people from, more or less, the same cultural circles. It’s not that they would answer the question “How happy are you?” differently—I don’t know, I haven’t asked. It’s just that the high-base people smile and laugh a lot, are prone to engaging in spontaneous fun, are generally comfortable with life. And the low-base people tend to have a characteristic disapproving expression on their faces (which will actually mold their face by middle age), whine and grumble a lot, and find life generally unpleasant.
Note that here I’m talking about, basically, long-term averages. In the short term high-base people can and will get unhappy and depressed; low-base people can and will get excited and joyful. But both will revert to the mean—I’m not talking about bipolar people who will oscillate between highs and lows, they are a separate category.
What happened to you during those years? Feel free to decline to answer if I’m being too intrusive.
At the start, I decided that emotions were holding me back, and that logic was the more appropriate path, and so sat down one day and destroyed my emotions.
Over the next few years? I graduated high school, then college, got a couple of low-level jobs, then a real job, which I’ve held since. Dated a few people, role-played a normal person in the course of my interactions with them.
My emotions weren’t completely gone, over this period of time, but rather… remote, happening to somebody else. If they got particularly intense, I could observe my body’s reaction to them—hands clenching in anger, for example—but I didn’t actually experience them. The emotions were there, but the connection to my conscious mind was severed.
At some point in there, I read Atlas Shrugged, which convinced me that emotions were not, in fact, useless distractions from pure logic. I still wasn’t experiencing them, but the absence was no longer desirable; at that point, it was neutral. Everything was neutral, really. That began the gray phase of my life.
I honestly don’t remember much from that period of time. Nothing had any kind of significance. I worked, I dated, read books, played games. None of it particularly mattered; existence was a habit without importance. It wasn’t unpleasant, because unpleasantness would have been something. I was told I was depressed. If I was, if I wasn’t—didn’t particularly matter.
Then I tried LSD. And… I had a day that wasn’t gray. I appreciated the green color of the leaves on trees, the texture of the bark. Shrug So I decided I would prefer to live like that all the time, and started permitting myself to experience life again. Started taking Vitamin D, which kick-started the process.
Which began a rather dark period, as allowing myself to experience required confronting all the suffering I had avoided. The deaths of some people who had been close to me in my youth. An ex-girlfriend raping me, and before that with another partner, my first sexual encounters having been undesired, but my having not refused because I didn’t care enough to. How inherently abusive many of the relationships I was in were, how dysfunctional the situation I had allowed myself to get into was. Admitting to myself that much of the past decade of my life had been a failure.
And then things got better, because the recognition that things were bad was the same as the recognition that things could get better, and so I starting making things better. I got out of the situation, and have started working towards the next phase in my life.
That’s an amazing journey of self-discovery. I, too, had a period where I wanted to erase the parts of me that I found useless, but I didn’t go as deeply Vulcan as you did. (You’re the first person I’ve met who became more sensitive and overall nicer because of Atlas Shrugged.) I’m sorry to hear that you went through so many dark places during your process, and I find your final meditations on the meaning of suffering to be quite inspiring. You have my admiration.
Pain and suffering are not the same thing. One woman will suffer while giving birth while the next doesn’t and enjoys the experience.