As of late July last year, “I” am in PNSE. A few comments.
First, no major errors or concerns when reading the post. I might have missed something, but nothing triggered the “this is misunderstanding what PNSE is fundamentally like” alarm.
Second, there’s a lot of ways PNSE is explained. I like this short version: “I am me”. That is, “I”, the subject of experience, no longer experiences itself as subject, but rather as object, i.e. “me”. It’s like having a third-person experience of the self. I also like to describe it as thought becoming a sense, like vision or hearing, because “I” no longer do the thinking; instead this person does the thinking to me.
Third, not everyone describes it this way, but in Zen we call the transition into PNSE the Great Death because it literally feels like dying. It’s not dissimilar from the ego death people experience on drugs like LSD, but ego “death” is better described as ego “sleep” because it comes back and, after it’s happened once, the mind knows the ego is going to come back, whereas in the Great Death the sense of separate self is gone and not coming back. All that said, many with PNSE don’t experience a violent transition like this, so the Great Death or something like it may be a contingent feature of some paths to PNSE and not others.
Fourth, I don’t remember if the paper discusses this, and this is controversial among some Buddhist traditions, but PNSE doesn’t mean the mind is totally liberated from belief in a separate self. You said the homunculus concept lies dormant, but I’d say it does more than that. The mind is filled with many beliefs that presupposed the existence of the homunculus, and even if the homunculus is no longer part of experiences of the world, it’s still baked into habits of behavior, and it takes significant additional work once in PNSE to learn new habits to replace the old ones that don’t have the homunculus baked into them. Very few people ever become free of all of them, and maybe literally no one does as long as they continue to live.
Fifth and finally, PNSE is great, I’m glad it’s how I am now. It’s also fine not to be in it, because even if you believe you have a homunculus, in an absolute sense you already don’t, you’re just confused about how the world works, and that’s okay, we’re all confused. PNSE is also confused, but in different ways, and with fewer layers of confusion. So if you read this post and are now excited to try for PNSE, great, do it, but be careful. Lots of people Goodhart on what they think PNSE is because they try too hard to get it. If PNSE doesn’t sneak up on you, then be extra suspect of Goodharting! (Actually, just always be suspicious that you’ve Goodharted yourself!)
As of late July last year, “I” am in PNSE. A few comments.
First, no major errors or concerns when reading the post. I might have missed something, but nothing triggered the “this is misunderstanding what PNSE is fundamentally like” alarm.
Second, there’s a lot of ways PNSE is explained. I like this short version: “I am me”. That is, “I”, the subject of experience, no longer experiences itself as subject, but rather as object, i.e. “me”. It’s like having a third-person experience of the self. I also like to describe it as thought becoming a sense, like vision or hearing, because “I” no longer do the thinking; instead this person does the thinking to me.
Third, not everyone describes it this way, but in Zen we call the transition into PNSE the Great Death because it literally feels like dying. It’s not dissimilar from the ego death people experience on drugs like LSD, but ego “death” is better described as ego “sleep” because it comes back and, after it’s happened once, the mind knows the ego is going to come back, whereas in the Great Death the sense of separate self is gone and not coming back. All that said, many with PNSE don’t experience a violent transition like this, so the Great Death or something like it may be a contingent feature of some paths to PNSE and not others.
Fourth, I don’t remember if the paper discusses this, and this is controversial among some Buddhist traditions, but PNSE doesn’t mean the mind is totally liberated from belief in a separate self. You said the homunculus concept lies dormant, but I’d say it does more than that. The mind is filled with many beliefs that presupposed the existence of the homunculus, and even if the homunculus is no longer part of experiences of the world, it’s still baked into habits of behavior, and it takes significant additional work once in PNSE to learn new habits to replace the old ones that don’t have the homunculus baked into them. Very few people ever become free of all of them, and maybe literally no one does as long as they continue to live.
Fifth and finally, PNSE is great, I’m glad it’s how I am now. It’s also fine not to be in it, because even if you believe you have a homunculus, in an absolute sense you already don’t, you’re just confused about how the world works, and that’s okay, we’re all confused. PNSE is also confused, but in different ways, and with fewer layers of confusion. So if you read this post and are now excited to try for PNSE, great, do it, but be careful. Lots of people Goodhart on what they think PNSE is because they try too hard to get it. If PNSE doesn’t sneak up on you, then be extra suspect of Goodharting! (Actually, just always be suspicious that you’ve Goodharted yourself!)