Interesting. I used to have a similar thing going on with competitive swimming. Don’t get me wrong, I wanted to impress my parents, I wanted my coach to be proud, I wanted to earn my place at the team...but when it came to actually standing on a block beside seven other swimmers, the pressure would build until something snapped. I don’t think I ever really believed I could win, and thanks to my body type I rarely did. (I seem to almost completely lack fast-twitch muscle fibers; I once swam 17 km straight, at age 14, and I don’t think anyone else on the team could have done that, but even much slower swimmers would beat me easily in a sprint.)
Interesting. I used to have a similar thing going on with competitive swimming. Don’t get me wrong, I wanted to impress my parents, I wanted my coach to be proud, I wanted to earn my place at the team...but when it came to actually standing on a block beside seven other swimmers, the pressure would build until something snapped. I don’t think I ever really believed I could win, and thanks to my body type I rarely did. (I seem to almost completely lack fast-twitch muscle fibers; I once swam 17 km straight, at age 14, and I don’t think anyone else on the team could have done that, but even much slower swimmers would beat me easily in a sprint.)