Erm...when I was a lot younger, when I considered doing something wrong or told a lie I had the vague feeling that someone was keeping tabs. Basically, when weighing utilities I greatly upped the probability that someone would somehow come to know of my wrongdoings, even when it was totally implausible. That “someone” was certainly not God or a dead ancestor or anything supernatural...it wasn’t even necessarily an authority figure.
Basically, the superstition was that someone who knew me well would eventually come to find out about my wrongdoing, and one day they would confront me about it. And they’d be greatly disappointed or angry.
I’m ashamed to say that in the past I might have actually done actions which I myself felt were immoral, if it were not for that superstitious feeling that my actions would be discovered by another individual. It’s hard to say in retrospect whether the superstitious feeling was the factor that pushed me back over that edge.
Note that I never believed the superstition...it was more of a gut feeling.
I’m older now and am proud to say that I haven’t given serious consideration to doing anything which I personally feel is immoral for a very, very long time. So I do not know whether I still carry this superstition. It’s not really something I can test empirically.
I think part of it is that as I grew older my mind conceptually merged “selfish desire” and “morality” neatly into one single “what is the sum total of my goals” utility function construct (though I wasn’t familiar with the term “utility function” at the time).
This shift occurred sometime in high school, and it happened around the same time that I overcame mind-body dualism at a gut level. Though I’ve always had generally atheist beliefs, it wasn’t until this shift that I really understood the implications of a logical universe.
Once these dichotomies broke down, I no longer felt the temptation to “give in” to selfish desire, nor was I warded off by “guilt” or the superstitious fear. I follow morals because I want to follow them, since they are a huge part of my utility function. Once my brain understood at a gut level that going against my morality was intrinsically against my interests, I stopped feeling any temptation to do immoral actions for selfish reasons. On the flip side, the shift also allows be to be selfish without feeling guilty. It’s not that I’m a “better person” thanks to the shift in gut instinct...it’s more that my opposing instincts don’t fight with each other by using temptation, fear, and guilt anymore.
I think there is something about that “shift” experience I described (anecdote indicates that a lot of smart people go through this at some point in life, but most describe it in less than articulate spiritual terms) which permanently alters your gut feelings about reality, morality, and similar topics in philosophy.
I’m guessing those who answered “never” either did not carry the illusions in question to begin with and therefore did not require a shift in thought, or they did not factor in how they felt pre-shift into their introspection.
Erm...when I was a lot younger, when I considered doing something wrong or told a lie I had the vague feeling that someone was keeping tabs. Basically, when weighing utilities I greatly upped the probability that someone would somehow come to know of my wrongdoings, even when it was totally implausible. That “someone” was certainly not God or a dead ancestor or anything supernatural...it wasn’t even necessarily an authority figure.
Basically, the superstition was that someone who knew me well would eventually come to find out about my wrongdoing, and one day they would confront me about it. And they’d be greatly disappointed or angry.
I’m ashamed to say that in the past I might have actually done actions which I myself felt were immoral, if it were not for that superstitious feeling that my actions would be discovered by another individual. It’s hard to say in retrospect whether the superstitious feeling was the factor that pushed me back over that edge.
Note that I never believed the superstition...it was more of a gut feeling.
I’m older now and am proud to say that I haven’t given serious consideration to doing anything which I personally feel is immoral for a very, very long time. So I do not know whether I still carry this superstition. It’s not really something I can test empirically.
I think part of it is that as I grew older my mind conceptually merged “selfish desire” and “morality” neatly into one single “what is the sum total of my goals” utility function construct (though I wasn’t familiar with the term “utility function” at the time).
This shift occurred sometime in high school, and it happened around the same time that I overcame mind-body dualism at a gut level. Though I’ve always had generally atheist beliefs, it wasn’t until this shift that I really understood the implications of a logical universe.
Once these dichotomies broke down, I no longer felt the temptation to “give in” to selfish desire, nor was I warded off by “guilt” or the superstitious fear. I follow morals because I want to follow them, since they are a huge part of my utility function. Once my brain understood at a gut level that going against my morality was intrinsically against my interests, I stopped feeling any temptation to do immoral actions for selfish reasons. On the flip side, the shift also allows be to be selfish without feeling guilty. It’s not that I’m a “better person” thanks to the shift in gut instinct...it’s more that my opposing instincts don’t fight with each other by using temptation, fear, and guilt anymore.
I think there is something about that “shift” experience I described (anecdote indicates that a lot of smart people go through this at some point in life, but most describe it in less than articulate spiritual terms) which permanently alters your gut feelings about reality, morality, and similar topics in philosophy.
I’m guessing those who answered “never” either did not carry the illusions in question to begin with and therefore did not require a shift in thought, or they did not factor in how they felt pre-shift into their introspection.