Sorry, I didn’t realise until reading your comment today that that was a prevalent reading. (Although in retrospect it makes some sense.)
I think this error is pretty related to the original errors. I had a bunch of illusion of transparency and some psychological block around possible interpretations of things I did as sex-seeking. Also at the time of the public discussion I just felt really bad and it seemed kind of appropriate that people should think badly of me (I understood that they did think badly, but not the detail of that).
By the time I’d largely worked through the psychological issues and talked further about things publicly (in my December update, or my response to the EV investigation), it seemed better to talk at a more general level about what had gone wrong, and not try to rehash the original discussion. (I was aware that I’d be able to talk about it more clearly vs where I was last year, but I don’t think it’s a super comfortable topic of conversation for anyone, and it’s not clear the extra clarity made it worth getting into it.)
Sorry, I didn’t realise until reading your comment today that that was a prevalent reading. (Although in retrospect it makes some sense.)
I think this error is pretty related to the original errors. I had a bunch of illusion of transparency and some psychological block around possible interpretations of things I did as sex-seeking. Also at the time of the public discussion I just felt really bad and it seemed kind of appropriate that people should think badly of me (I understood that they did think badly, but not the detail of that).
By the time I’d largely worked through the psychological issues and talked further about things publicly (in my December update, or my response to the EV investigation), it seemed better to talk at a more general level about what had gone wrong, and not try to rehash the original discussion. (I was aware that I’d be able to talk about it more clearly vs where I was last year, but I don’t think it’s a super comfortable topic of conversation for anyone, and it’s not clear the extra clarity made it worth getting into it.)