I had an above knee amputation due to cancer in March and have been on opiates – several different kinds, less over time, sometimes when I was in a lot of pain and sometimes more prophylactically when I’m not in pain but am preparing for something I expect to be painful. I mostly hate the experience of being on them, especially the “high” if I take it before I’m actually in pain from physiotherapy or whatever. (I do appreciate being in less pain. Pain is bad.)
I...guess it’s interesting and I could see a different person liking the experience? I get a lot of dissociative effects, especially with the IV opiates they gave me in hospital. (Feeling like I’m floating above my body, feeling like I don’t have free will and am just watching my actions happen from a distance.) I don’t particularly enjoy this. They also make me feel tired and out of it / cognitively impaired, and I am really, really averse to that. I ended up drinking so much coffee in the hospital trying to fight this off.
My guess is that brains vary and some people would experience this as “feeling great”. (I’ve noticed this with other things like stimulants; I really like how coffee makes me feel, for example, but I know a lot of people who experience it as anxiety/unpleasant jitteriness.)
Have you tried opiates? You don’t need to be in pain for it to make you feel great
I had an above knee amputation due to cancer in March and have been on opiates – several different kinds, less over time, sometimes when I was in a lot of pain and sometimes more prophylactically when I’m not in pain but am preparing for something I expect to be painful. I mostly hate the experience of being on them, especially the “high” if I take it before I’m actually in pain from physiotherapy or whatever. (I do appreciate being in less pain. Pain is bad.)
I...guess it’s interesting and I could see a different person liking the experience? I get a lot of dissociative effects, especially with the IV opiates they gave me in hospital. (Feeling like I’m floating above my body, feeling like I don’t have free will and am just watching my actions happen from a distance.) I don’t particularly enjoy this. They also make me feel tired and out of it / cognitively impaired, and I am really, really averse to that. I ended up drinking so much coffee in the hospital trying to fight this off.
My guess is that brains vary and some people would experience this as “feeling great”. (I’ve noticed this with other things like stimulants; I really like how coffee makes me feel, for example, but I know a lot of people who experience it as anxiety/unpleasant jitteriness.)
As for being on ibogaine, a high dose isn’t fun for sure, but microdoses are close to neutral and their therapeutic value makes them net positive