Ah, I remember having the distinct impression of drawing a blank when reading that sentence. Your further description helps, but it’s feeling a little vague. I think I can kind of see it in my memory of past interactions, but I don’t think I have enough of a handle on it that it seems like I could have done much differently. The referent of “not-knowing,” and what it is not-knowing of is fuzzy/not so clear to me (though as I am writing all of this, it is becoming clearer and clearer). Is it not-knowing of how the scene will unfold? Of what the scene is? Of the roles we are playing? All of the above?
I find myself wanting to do the annoying zen thing of answering “mu”. I think that’s the most accurate answer.
I’ll try saying more words, though, to offer an illusion of it being more satisfying:
You’re trying really hard to understand what it is that you’re not knowing. Or rather, your character is trying really hard at this. Whether it succeeds by its own standards or not is totally irrelevant.
If you Look, honestly, at what it is that you do not know, you’ll See what I mean. I claim.
I find myself wanting to do the annoying zen thing of answering “mu”. I think that’s the most accurate answer.
I’ll try saying more words, though, to offer an illusion of it being more satisfying:
You’re trying really hard to understand what it is that you’re not knowing. Or rather, your character is trying really hard at this. Whether it succeeds by its own standards or not is totally irrelevant.
If you Look, honestly, at what it is that you do not know, you’ll See what I mean. I claim.