I’m glad that you mentioned that, because it reminded me of something. I frequently feel like an NPC, but I also get a truly vast amount of false alarms on my existential crisis meter for some reason. I mean, I know I’ve been depressed before, but even attempting to account for that, some of my internal thought processes feel ridiculous in retrospect. Let me give you an example:
“Life has no purpose, I don’t care whether I live or die, everyone is going to abandon me when I inevitably fail.”
Eats Food.
“Wait, I was just hungry.”
I mean, that sounds absurd to type, but I really have had that happen.
I am not saying that your specific Existential crisis is a false alarm. (You may have already established that it isn’t.) But there might have been other people reading who aren’t aware that Existential False alarms exist, and your mention of being an NPC reminded me of that.
I’m glad that you mentioned that, because it reminded me of something. I frequently feel like an NPC, but I also get a truly vast amount of false alarms on my existential crisis meter for some reason. I mean, I know I’ve been depressed before, but even attempting to account for that, some of my internal thought processes feel ridiculous in retrospect. Let me give you an example:
“Life has no purpose, I don’t care whether I live or die, everyone is going to abandon me when I inevitably fail.”
Eats Food.
“Wait, I was just hungry.”
I mean, that sounds absurd to type, but I really have had that happen.
I am not saying that your specific Existential crisis is a false alarm. (You may have already established that it isn’t.) But there might have been other people reading who aren’t aware that Existential False alarms exist, and your mention of being an NPC reminded me of that.