If you believe that you spend that time on the computer because you’re lonely, this would seem to be a prime example of “experiential pica”. If I were you my hesitation would probably be inertia, feeling like it would be odd to just stop in even if they left that offer open. In which case, perhaps you ought to will yourself to do it a first time so that it becomes more normal. You have little to lose, presumably.
If you believe that you spend that time on the computer because you’re lonely, this would seem to be a prime example of “experiential pica”. If I were you my hesitation would probably be inertia, feeling like it would be odd to just stop in even if they left that offer open. In which case, perhaps you ought to will yourself to do it a first time so that it becomes more normal. You have little to lose, presumably.