Paul Graham wrote an article called What You Can’t Say that seems somewhat relevant to your position, and in particular engages with the instrumental rationality of epistemic rationality. I bring that one up specifically because his conclusion is mostly “figure out what you can’t say, and then don’t say it.” But he’s also a startup guy, and is well aware of the exception that many good startup ideas seem unacceptable, because if they were acceptable ideas they’d already be mature industries. So many heresies are not worth endorsing publicly, even if you privately believe them, but some heresies are (mainly, if you expect significant instrumental gains from doing so).
I grew up in a Christian household and realized in my early teens that I was a gay atheist; I put off telling people for a long time and I’m not sure how much I got from doing so. (Both of my parents were understanding.) Most of my friends were from school anyway, and it was easy to just stop going to church when I left town for college, and then go when I’m visiting my parents out of family solidarity.
My suspicion is that your wife would prefer knowing sooner rather than later. I also predict that it is not going to get easier to tell her or your children as time goes on—if anything, as your children age and absorb more and more religious memes and norms, the more your public deconversion would affect them.
Paul Graham wrote an article called What You Can’t Say that seems somewhat relevant to your position, and in particular engages with the instrumental rationality of epistemic rationality. I bring that one up specifically because his conclusion is mostly “figure out what you can’t say, and then don’t say it.” But he’s also a startup guy, and is well aware of the exception that many good startup ideas seem unacceptable, because if they were acceptable ideas they’d already be mature industries. So many heresies are not worth endorsing publicly, even if you privately believe them, but some heresies are (mainly, if you expect significant instrumental gains from doing so).
I grew up in a Christian household and realized in my early teens that I was a gay atheist; I put off telling people for a long time and I’m not sure how much I got from doing so. (Both of my parents were understanding.) Most of my friends were from school anyway, and it was easy to just stop going to church when I left town for college, and then go when I’m visiting my parents out of family solidarity.
My suspicion is that your wife would prefer knowing sooner rather than later. I also predict that it is not going to get easier to tell her or your children as time goes on—if anything, as your children age and absorb more and more religious memes and norms, the more your public deconversion would affect them.