Thank you for the summary. I guess my bubble is more cynical than the average population, so I may underestimate how shocking similar thoughts would be for them. I might also add the replication crisis in science, etc.
Yes. The world is bad. Almost everything is broken. People don’t want to admit it. Those who understand how things work are often ashamed for their role in the system. Some respond by attacking those who point it out, or even those who merely refuse to participate in the same way.
...it still feels like I am waiting for the other shoe to drop.
All these things, they make me feel sad. I feel bad about all the wasted opportunity to live better. I don’t model most people as evil, just… overwhelmed by all the things that are wrong, and their inability to do something against it. Well, many are too stupid to care. Some people are genuinely evil. Many are going along with the flow, wherever it takes them. Most of human behavior is probably determined by habit; if you grow up in a dysfunctional environment, it will become your normal, but if your twin grew up in a better environment, they would recognize it as better. Even now, there are people who name the unpleasant truths. People who spend a large part of their life fighting against some specific dysfunction. But the world is complicated, and problems too numerous.
So, what is that extra insight that I could gain by contemplating these things while taking drugs and listening to Vassar whispering dark thoughts into my ears?
I have sometimes picked up a vibe of ‘we have uniquely/indispensably important insights’.
Me too, but nothing specific. Maybe it’s like when you are high and you believe that you have amazing insights, but when you write them down and read them again when you are sober, there is nothing.
Thank you for the summary. I guess my bubble is more cynical than the average population, so I may underestimate how shocking similar thoughts would be for them. I might also add the replication crisis in science, etc.
Yes. The world is bad. Almost everything is broken. People don’t want to admit it. Those who understand how things work are often ashamed for their role in the system. Some respond by attacking those who point it out, or even those who merely refuse to participate in the same way.
...it still feels like I am waiting for the other shoe to drop.
All these things, they make me feel sad. I feel bad about all the wasted opportunity to live better. I don’t model most people as evil, just… overwhelmed by all the things that are wrong, and their inability to do something against it. Well, many are too stupid to care. Some people are genuinely evil. Many are going along with the flow, wherever it takes them. Most of human behavior is probably determined by habit; if you grow up in a dysfunctional environment, it will become your normal, but if your twin grew up in a better environment, they would recognize it as better. Even now, there are people who name the unpleasant truths. People who spend a large part of their life fighting against some specific dysfunction. But the world is complicated, and problems too numerous.
So, what is that extra insight that I could gain by contemplating these things while taking drugs and listening to Vassar whispering dark thoughts into my ears?
Me too, but nothing specific. Maybe it’s like when you are high and you believe that you have amazing insights, but when you write them down and read them again when you are sober, there is nothing.